Saturday, September 27, 2008

Week 2!

Earthquakes and Such


Another week down! Sweet! This last week has been much better for me than week 1, thank god. I feel like I have adjusted to the humidity and the yoga room a lot more and my practise is actaully starting to resemble the one I had at home. :) No more nausea and all that jazz. Dont get me wrong, its still hard as hell but its (Bikram Yoga) is always hard as hell.

Here's a little run down on my week...

Sunday night, got woken up in the middle of the night by an earthquake, which at first I thought was maybe a dream but was soon confirmed it a reality when I asked Heidi "did you feel that?" and she responded half asleep with a little "ya". Then we had the infamous Emmy Monday morning to teach our class and her opening line was "you guys are all very brave to make it thru the earthquake". No worries not a big deal but the thought of more earthquakes and tsumani's did put a little fear in mind for a minute. I am learing to be careful of my thoughts here, it has happened serveral times now that Heidi and I will be talking about randomness and then it will appear. Like the day we were trippin' on the eel in the fish tank in the restaurant and I was telling her how I use to have an eel in my fish tank years ago and how she thinks eels are completely horrible and wrong and then no joke, later that day we went on a walk and there was an eel on the beach struggling to get back into the water (heidi got a great photo of it). Oh and then there was the talk we had about bats and how when I was little a bat got trapped in my room and scared the living shit out of me and how I hate bats, then literally the next night there was a freakin' bat trapped in the auditorium where we do lectures and it was flying over our heads in circles, like a damn haunted house. So strange. This is very random, I know, but it definitley tripped us out a bit and caused some good laughs too. We laugh a lot, I think its mostly sleep deprivation causing the outbursts but I will take them! So we are trying to be very careful about what we talk about though for sure.

The rest of the week pretty much all runs together;kinda like ground hogs day, we often forget what day it is or when something occured because it all seems the same. Wake up, eat 1/2 a banana, head to class, swim in the salt water pool, shower, eat brunch, go to lecture, back to class, drink a protein shake, back to lecuture and then try to get as much shut eye as possible. Tuesday night however was memberable, class was with Bikram and things were flowing for me, I was in my zone. We got to Triangle pose and I was feeling strong and focused, totally engaged in what I was doing and nothing else, when all of a sudden I hear a roar of gasps and little screams and then Bikram saying "Eathquake, come up, Earthquake, come up, come up Earthquake!" Ya, it took him saying it 3 times for it to register in my brain what was happening. I think that is called meditation. It was again very strange and also an experience that reminded me of a conversation Heidi and I had the day before when she expressed a little fear of "having an earthqueake in the yoga room", again, we are now being more aware of what is coming out of our mouths.



So for the most part this week went according to plan. Except for the fact that my right sciatica is fully inflamed and in a lot of pain. Not fun at all but I am dealing with it best I know how and am convinced it will pass soon. Of course I am still very exhausted daily but I am trusting the process and moving forward. We had some great speakers, got emerged in our Anatomy lessons (which thank goodness are all just a review for me, others are not so lucky and are very stressed about the upcoming exams). I feel like most of us here are adjusting and doing fine. We are all experiencing ups and downs and mood swings are in full bloom but all in all I think we are aware of them and more accepting of them.

Meeting more amazing yogi's daily and getting closer to our little crew and observing and embracing it all the best we can with our "yoga brains".

I am healthy and happy and enjoying the ride. The luxeries I have back home sound very inviting from time to time but I am not even allowing myself to go there in my mind. It will all be there when I get back and I will appreciate everything so much more for sure! I am reserving the weekends for blogging, listening to tunes, dinners out, laying by the pool (we are afterall at a very nice resort) and just indulging in all my little guilty pleasures. It is something I totally look forward to and had no idea how much I would crave!

I hope you are all doing well. I am really missing you all very much! You're in my thoughts, and I appreciate you all in my life. I know that I am very lucky to have such an amazing network of friends and family and I am very grateful for that.

Til next week...

Namaste~
Sash

P.S. I highly recommend checking out my roomie Heidi's blog as well, she is a bit more descriptive on the day to day details here. Good job girl! You can click on her blog from my page, just look over to the right side of the page under my favorite links.

P.P.S. If any of you feel like giving me a call on the weekends the number here is: 52-744-469-1000 room #720
I would love it!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Week 1!

"Holy Fuckin Shit"....

The phrase above was exactly what came out of my mouth (and Heidi's too but she actually added some just as classy words to follow) after our first 2 and 1/2 hour class with Bikram on day one! No one or nothing could have prepared us for it or for this entire week actually. We have said more than once "why in the hell did anyone encourage this kind of torture". We have questioned the so called love all our mentors and teachers have for us, why would they want us to be put thru this? Ok, I am sure none of this is making much sense to anyone except those who have been thru this, so I will try and expain to the rest of you what we have been going thru, but I can promise this, it will be very hard to put it all in words because we have gone thru so many ups and downs already, and its only week 1!

Where to start, I guess meeting Bikram and the staff, Bikram was pretty much what I thought but smaller or shorter rather. He is in incredible shape for being 72...um I mean 210 years old! ;) He makes me laugh harder than I have in a very long time and more pissed off, annoyed, angry and emotional all in sometimes that same sentence. He loves to talk and sing, a lot. He is caring and loving and also tough and pompous too. He really is a trip. But all in all I can appreciate him. His yoga is amazing and I respect him greatly for the creation of this series. Now the staff, I gotta be honest, I heard horror stories of past staff and I gotta say, our staff is awesome! They really have been great. The director is from San Diego, coincidence? I think not.

Now class. Or the last 9 classes actaully, that brings me current, can you believe it 9 down only 90 or so to go, ugh! And by the way class here is 90 minutes ONLY if you're lucky, so far most of them have been 2 hours or longer! Today was the first day that I actually remembered that I was a yogi and that I loved yoga. The first 7 classes before that were filled with nausea (lots and lots of it), dizziness, shortness of breath, prolonged elevated heart rate,migrain headaches, extreme extreme body heat (0k, so since we are in southern mexico, it is impossible to drop the humidity in the room below 70%!! Not to mention the 105-110 degree heat being pumped in simutaneously, the room is a fuckin furnace and feels like a real torture chamber, which by the way I always thought was a bit of an exaggeration before, no, not anymore, its pure truth), my classes were also filled with tears and were the most humbling experiences of my life. I mean I considered myself to have a fairly strong practise coming out here, oh boy did I get knocked on my ass real quick. Picture a room filled with 320 people with vomit buckets all lined up in the back of the room, that no joke, get full occupancy every class. And the staff constantly carrying people out like a fuckin war movie, I swear, is this yoga we are doing or this some sick torure boot camp? A little of both I am convenced. So I had food poisening or detox poisening (whatever) every day so far until today,THANK GOD its over, at least for now.Not going to get attached to anything, as things change by the minute here. It was pure misery, just picture feeling pretty much the worst you have ever felt and then walking into a furnace to do hard core yoga for 2 hours twise a day and lectures for 8 hours on top of that, brilliant huh? I know you are all jelous. Ok I think that is it for talking about the classes for now, hopefully you get the point. But to finish there is good, I had an amazing class with Bikram tonight, it felt awesome and I was elated the entire 2 hours (ya, did I mention he likes to talk, tell stories, sing songs, oh ya all the while you're holding triangle for what seems like eternity?). I practised next to our new friend Crystal (from Scottsdale) and Heidi and we all rocked it, finally! It was definite light at the end of this first weeks tunnel.

So the first week of Posture Clinics, is the time that each and every person has to get on stage and say the Half Moon dialog for Bikram and the other 310 people here. Nicole, you would have been proud, Heidi and I both volunteered the first day and got great feedback from Bikram. He actually cut me off towards the end and said "SOLD!" He said some other positive stuff but I was a littel thrown off and cant remember exactly but I know it was good and he was happy with it. YAY!

We had the honor of experiencing one of Mexico's major holidays and it was quite the party. I have video (thanks to my new Flip, love it ;)) that I will share later. Anyways, picture New Years eve in Times Square and 4th of July all rolled up in one night and that is what happened here. It was so awesome and such an amazing expereince. The hotel was all decorated, big screen tvs everywhere waiting for 11 pm for the president to come and yell "VIVA MEXICO!" and then he chants "VIVA!" and everyone chants back "MEXICO!" and this goes on for a while, the enegry was wild. Live music, lots of food booths, face painting, kids running around full of sugar and adults stumbling around taking full advatange of the free tequilla shots being passed around. There were fireworks and confettti, the whole nine yards. Mexicans raelly know how to party. Anyways, I feel very lucky to have expereinced it.

What else, our room is still great. Heidi and I are doing well as roomies, when we are grumpy (straight pissed off is a little more like it) we just kinda keep to ourselves and the other one gets it and gives a little space. But truthfully I feel more than blessed to have here with me, she is a blessing, a comfort and such an amazing friend. Love ya Heidi, we will get thru this love. The hotel is so beautiful, it is almost ridiculous. We swim in the fresh ocean water pool after every class and bask it the beauty that surrounds us. This tropical paradise is definitely keeping me inspied. I feel so at home as it reminds me so much of Maui, our room looks out to a large mountain that to me resembles Haleakala. I feel very happy here. The food is fabulous too! Big bonus. And still, no sugar for me! Yippee! Even on our first nights dinner, which was catered for us and came complete with ice cream sundae's, I still didnt buckle, and I wont, actaully that seems like a piece of cake compared to everything else, seriously. For those of you that have no idea what I am talking about, I gave up my sugar addiction for these 9 weeks and intend on conquering and diminshing it for good. Not that I will never eat suagar again but maybe just not everyday, hey that would be good.

The people, the friends, the experience in it self is all wonderful. Truly. I mean, I can honestly say the first few days I was ready to pack up and say "Fuck That" but making it thru it now has shown me just how much strength I have. What does not kill me will only make me stronger and I swear I am going to be one strong ass chick when I get out of here, I am 110% sure of it! Wish me luck, I have a long journey ahead of me. I really appreciate all the love, prayers, and positive vibes you have all sent, please keep them coming! I want you all to know how much your support means to me, so please please, please send me some messages, comments, whatever, it is such a treat to get online listen to my playlist and read messages from all of you! I feel pretty disconnected out here and as they say out here, we are in a completely different realm right now, a entirely different reality, a whole new dimension really. No one can ever explain the craziness of this experience but I will tell you this, it is the hardest thing I have ever done and after every torturing hot ass yoga class (didnt I come here because I love yoga? ya.) I am almost in disbelief that I have survived it. So, truly, any and all the love you send my way I embrace and cherish more than you will ever know. I miss you all very much. I dont have a lot of time to think about anything else besides where I am in that particular moment in time but when I do get some air and take a look around (like tonight, Bikram gave us the night off) it is so encouraging to get word from those I love. Hell, just putting on my ipod and listening to my good tunes is comforting beyond belief.

So in closing, I hope you are all well. I love you all very much, more than ever before, as my heart is so full of love right now. xoxo

Namaste~
Sash


P.S. Mom, thank u so much for the necklace, I wear it everyday! I have received lots of compliments on it but really it just makes me feel close to you and reminds me daily of why I am here, so thank you, you will never know how much it means to me. I will cherish it forever. xoxo


P.P.S. I do apologize for the not-so-PG language, I am just being raw and real, so I apologize if I offend anyone.

9-20-08- WEEK 1 COMPLETE!


Today was the official completion of week one! Hell Ya! Only 8 more weeks to go!

Class this morning was amazing and I cant even express how much gratitude I have for ending the week on a positive strong note. I even had the thought of going to the optional class tomorrow morning to stay acclimated to the hot ass room but then thought again and remembered that I am not a crazy person.

I also wanted to mention that my days here are hella long, we usually get out anywhere from midnight to 2 am it really all depends on Bikram's mood and we are up at sunrise to start the process all over again, so that is why I have zero time to connect to the outside world. But again, I so appreciate the love you all have been sending my way and look forward to it like a child on christmas morning, so please keep it coming! It truly is the driving force behind me right now. :)

All in all, I am in really good spirits and am embracing this life changing experience fully.

Time to log off and get ready to head to dinner with the girls tonight, we have aquired an awesome little crew of beautiful positive yogini's from all over the globe to surround oursleves with! Its funny, we are all blondes too (except for one), I know, its a site to be seen for sure!

xoxox

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Its Official!

I have arrived! Acapulco is beautiful and the Fairmont Princess is even more so! Our "mini condo" that Heidi and I share is way more spacious than I expected, nice surprise for sure and so far its been smooth sailing. Eveything has been super simple and easy. We are even embracing the crazy cab and shuttles rides that we have to close our eyes to withstand out of fear for our lives. "Enjoy the ride" (or rides) is what we have been told, so we are, literally. I also had a little "food poisening scare in the middle of the night last night, but woke up to feeling fine, thank god!

We have met and befriended a ton of yogi's already. Heidi has been quite the greeting committee, love her! It is so surreal being surrounded by 300 people who love this yoga as much as us and that are from all over the world. The vibe and energy is awesome and it keeps building as we get closer to Day 1! :)

Misha this one is for you, so this morning waiting to eat breakfast (which was really the only bummer so far, being that it is Mexican holiday weekend, there are a freakin' million visitors here that are also trying to eat breakfast at the same restaurant at the same time) ok on with my story, so after waiting for 30 minutes for to be seated we realized there may be a problem and there was, they lost our name and then proceeded to put our name down again under (no joke) like 40 other names! 2 hungry girls were not too impressed but ironically at the very same time a woman walked up to us out of no where and asked if we would like to join their table, they just happened to have 2 extra seats! SWEET! Hell Ya! So we sit down and begin to meet 6 others from all over the globe, London, Canada, the US and yes, drum roll please... SINGAPORE!!!! Misha, can you believe it? Your girls and your other girls all having their first breakfast together by absolute chance! I dont really believe in chances or coincidences but fate more. They are so sweet and we bonded instantly, pictures and all (which i will post soon). And of course, you our dear Misha, were the hot topic at breakie! It felt great to speak of you and how wonderful and powerful you have been in all of our lives. We miss u lots and feel your cheering from afar, thank you!

Today was our day to shop, unpack, and get organized. It all took place with total ease.

So in a couple of hours we will meet Bikram, his crew and the other 300 yogi's! Very excited and anxious to get this show on the road. We checked out the "torture chamber" and hell it is hot already and they havent even turned the heat on yet! But it is a gorgeous room and it seems unreal that I will be practising with 300 others 2 times a day for the next 62 days!

Thats really it for now, just wanted you all to know I made it safely and so far am in great spirits. I expected more anxiety, nerves and fear but am pleasantly surprised with my serenity and peace.

Hope your all well! I will be in touch again soon, please drop me a line, I really miss you all very much already!

Lots of love,
xoxox
~Sash

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

THANK U!!!

WOW!!! I am beyond grateful for all of your well wishes already!

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

You have no idea how much it means to me, these last few days have been more nerve racking than I anticipated, one minute I just want to be there already and then the next minute I have serious thoughts of reconsidering going all together. Strange. But one thing is clear, I have the best friends and family in all the world! I love you guys and just knowing that you are all behind me keeps me motivated and driven to take this on! Thanks again everyone and please keep em' comin!

Check out all the love...


Right on girl! I'm very stoked and proud. you're gonna kick ass.
take care until we meet again my dear
jenna




Holy cow!!!! That is serious! Good luck and have fun. Talk to you soon.
Guy

Congratulations Sasha - this is so exciting!! I will definitely be checking your blog to see how your journey unfolds. Wishing you strength, insight, and peace!!!
Blessings,
Julie


Hi Sasha,
Best of luck to you in Mexico! I wish you all the luck with your Bikram training. I remember you were the first person to tell me about Bikram yoga and I tried it at the studio on Tatum and Thunderbird. The pictures of your poses look amazing, by the way!I really miss your spin classes, so if you get the urge to teach spin again at any gym, please let me know!!Please send me updates on your blog with everything.Talk to you soon!
Gina

You can do it. Be safe.
Love Uncle Jon and Aunt Marie


Hope you have a great time in Mexico. Let us know when you get back so you can come tell everyone about it.
Best wishes!!
Brock



Hi Sasha,
I wish you the best as you embark on an adventure that will surely be very challenging yet so life changing. Not only will you benefit and inspire so many of your future students, but I imagine the personal benefits will be great and many and last you a lifetime. Keep in touch if you can, I would love to know how it is going or offer encouragement if you should ever need. I will definitely be there to celebrate your achievement when you return to Arizona and most definitely be ready to sign up for your classes! Safe travels!
Love, Stacy

hey baby!!!!!!
You are going to do amazing!!!!! I expect to hear from you whenever you can break away!!!
I can't wait to take your class!!!!!!
My girls from Singapore are Clancy and Elanor- please look for them and introduce yourself!!!!! I told them the same-
Lots of Love my dear and please give my love to your mama!!!!!!
Misha




Hi Sasha,
Congratulations, I am so proud of you! You are going to be awesome! I cannot wait to take one of your classes someday. You are an inspirational teacher in so many aspects. By the way, you look amazing!!! I sit here pregnant and jealous but I can live vicariously through your experience :)I will be thinking of you!xoxoxo
Cara



Hey mama,
I just wanted to send some love and positive thoughts your way as you get ready to head out to Mexico! Good luck and if you can keep me updated on how things are going, I am so excited for you. Have a safe and wonderful time!xoxo
Gina



You look great Sasha! Good luck with the yoga training - Bikram is HOT here in Cali!
Leslie



Good luck at training i miss you.come visit :(
Kayleigh

Sasha,
Congratulations! May your time spent in training be one of enlightenment surrounded by power, joy and love! Please be in contact with me when you return.
Namaste,
Raquel

You look GREAT!! I am so happy for you, now that you found a yoga you can teach and look how far you have come! I'm applauding your success, stay focused, your dreams will all come true.
Kali

Congrats Sasha! You're totally a bikram instructor...no worries.
Doris

Friday, September 5, 2008

Bikram Yoga



Bikram Yoga :
also known as hot yoga

90 minute hatha yoga class, done in a heated room

26 postures, 2 breathing exercises.


Working every muscle, joint, ligament, tendon, organ and gland, bones to skin, inside and out. Requiring much determination, strength and meditation.
A practise of self realization.

It is much more than your average yoga class.

http://www.bikramyoga.com/

The time has arrived, it seems so surreal! I am wrapping up last minute details as I get ready to head down to Acapulco, Mexico for 9 weeks to train with Bikram himself and take on his "yoga boot camp" in his infamous "torture chamber". It is the only road to becoming one of his teachers of his amazing yoga! I am very nervous, anxious and excited too! I mean, when ever again will I get to spend 9 straight weeks doing nothing but yoga? 2 classes a day to be exact; thats almost 4 hours a day in the hot room! Plus another 8-10 hours a day of lectures and posture clinics. Focusing all of my time and energy on nothing but yoga. :) However, I have been warned many times over again of the hardships that lie ahead of me at training; how I will want to quit and question why I am there. I have been warned that this experience will change me and my life forever. I am going to embrace it, every minute of it! What doesnt kill me will make me stronger, right? Well then, I plan on coming out of this training stronger than ever and ready to take on my whole new life!

If you have had the opportunity to take a Bikram Yoga Class you can understand the intensity and the magnitude of self discipline and self realization required. The integrity of this practise starts within the teachers and it is known that Bikram is very hard on his teachers in order to maintain this integrity. If you havent (taken a class) I hope upon my return you will come and allow me to guide you through at least one. ;)

So here is the start to my blogging adventures, a personal journal, a window to my soul throughout this journey. You can stay in touch with my thru myspace and hotmail as well but I will have very limited phone access, in other words, I wont be using my phone for 9 weeks! Thats liberating in itself, right?

I wish you all a very happy and healthy Fall! Take good care of yourselves and eachother. I will be returning November 16 and look forward to reconnecting with you all then!

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers and please, please, please KEEP IN TOUCH! I appreciate all the love and support I can get!
With much love,
Sash
~Namaste~

"Don't let anyone or anything ever take your peace away"