Congratulations Kiddo!
Graduation day! Woke up a little tired from the lack of sleep but the thrill of the day quickly took over and I felt amazing! We had a couple last minute errands to take care of before we could start "getting ready". Which we did togther, our group of girls, Niki, Josephina, Heidi, Sabine and Me. We did our hair, nails, make-up,put on our dresses and heels and were ready to graduate!
The graduation it self was 5 hours long! Holy cow, I guess I shouldnt have been surprised, it was Bikram's Yoga College Graduation afterall. :) It was a very nice ceramony. And the best part was getting my certificate! We all got to give Rajashree and Bikram a hug as we accepted our certificate from them. Bikram handed my my certificate and said "Congratulations Kiddo". It was sweet. After the ceramony we had a very nice dinner provided by the Fairmont and it was very lovely. I said a lot of good-byes (or see-ya-later's rather)and thanked a lot of the staff and senior teachers for their contribution.
Then lots of people headed to the lobby bar for more mingling. Then off to club Pure. It was a night filled with loads of dancinga and celebrating. Lets just say, it was a LONG NIGHT...I krept back into my hotel room at 6 AM! :) Good times!
Teacher Training will always be an amazing memory for me. Life alternating, definitly. It was the hardest venture I have ever pursued and also the most rewarding experience of my life! ;) I am forever grateful for the opportunity. And I am truly honored to call myself a Certified Bikram Yoga Teacher!
Now...go out there and teach em'!
xooxo
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Week 9!
Fun and the Flu
Last week of teacher training, thought it would never arrive! The excitement to the week was large, everyone was taking pictures, videos, exchanging information, crying, laughing and bracing themselves to re-enter the "real world". I for one was a little numb, I was unsure of how I felt, I kinda felt afraid to go home and face the world outside of our little yoga bubble and at the same time I couldnt wait to have my life back. I had completely detatched from my life back home while I was here so truthfully I wasnt really sure what my life back home even looked like anymore. I just stayed present and absorbed the love and excitement that surrounded me.
Tuesday morning I woke up with .....THE FLU! Can you believe it? I couldnt. Whole body aches, chills, fever, nausea..the whole bit! I was abslutely miserable! I cried a lot that day, mainly because my body hurt so bad but also because I did not want to spend my last hours, classes and lectures being sick. I did have to visit the infamous puke bucket that day, and if I would have had any liquids or food in me it would have been eventful but instead it just was my support as I lay in agony. It was no fun. The nurse said there was a 24 hour flu going around and that I would feel better by the next day and I DID! :) Thank god!
Wednesday and Thursday were typical days. Craig came back to training and lectured and taught us his infamous ridiculously hard class both nights. Craig is AWESOME! I really liked him and fell in love with him immediately. He a Jersey boy turned surfer. Its no suprise he stole my heart (my dad is from Jersey and I have a soft spot in my heart for surfers, as everyone knows). I felt a little bummed that we only got him for a week, but was not sad that we only had to have two yoga classes with him, he is a hardass teacher for sure!
Friday. THE BIG DAY! Our official last day of Bikram's Yoga College! The day was perfect! Rajashree taught the morning class and it was beautiful. I placed my mat right in front of her and admired her beauty and grace. I definitely had some tears flowing, tears of joy and a little sadness for this experience coming to an end. We then had our last "lecture" which was actually a session for students to ask questions and share their stories about how they found the yoga and what brought them here. Let me just say there was not enough Kleenex in the building that afternoon, we, and I do mean WE as in all 300 of us, were choked up and very emotional. The inspiring stories just kept coming one after another, my only regret was that we didnt do this week one. We got to see people in a whole new light. I was touched, inspired and moved beyond words. I love my Fall 2008 peeps! :) Then it was time for our final yoga class, class #99! And of course Bikram, Boss himself lead us. The room was jammed packed with visitors and the vibe was right! Bikram was in a great mood and lead the best class ever! As class came closer and closer to the end the emotions built. And one of the highlights for me was when Bikram called me out saying that I had one of the best rabbits out of everyone in training! WOW! Not bad for a girl who entered TT with true hatred for Rabbit pose! I was thrilled. The end of class came and all of us requested #3 on Bikrams' CD, it was our theme song and he delivered, as soon as the song (which is Bikram singing with techno beats, classsic!) started everyone got up from Savasana and started dancing, hugging, crying, celebrating, yes, even Bikram! He was dancing and smiling, it was so adorable. I love him so much! It was a beautiful ending to TT and I will never forget that night. Oh but that was not the end, the talent show was that night, and whoa talent is what we had in deed, I was shocked to see the talent of my peers. The night was so FUN! Everyone dresssed up to see the "show" and we were greeted with pizza and beverages as we took our seats. So FUN!
I didnt get to bed til 3:30 am, I was filled with adrenaline for the next day.....GRADUATION!
Last week of teacher training, thought it would never arrive! The excitement to the week was large, everyone was taking pictures, videos, exchanging information, crying, laughing and bracing themselves to re-enter the "real world". I for one was a little numb, I was unsure of how I felt, I kinda felt afraid to go home and face the world outside of our little yoga bubble and at the same time I couldnt wait to have my life back. I had completely detatched from my life back home while I was here so truthfully I wasnt really sure what my life back home even looked like anymore. I just stayed present and absorbed the love and excitement that surrounded me.
Tuesday morning I woke up with .....THE FLU! Can you believe it? I couldnt. Whole body aches, chills, fever, nausea..the whole bit! I was abslutely miserable! I cried a lot that day, mainly because my body hurt so bad but also because I did not want to spend my last hours, classes and lectures being sick. I did have to visit the infamous puke bucket that day, and if I would have had any liquids or food in me it would have been eventful but instead it just was my support as I lay in agony. It was no fun. The nurse said there was a 24 hour flu going around and that I would feel better by the next day and I DID! :) Thank god!
Wednesday and Thursday were typical days. Craig came back to training and lectured and taught us his infamous ridiculously hard class both nights. Craig is AWESOME! I really liked him and fell in love with him immediately. He a Jersey boy turned surfer. Its no suprise he stole my heart (my dad is from Jersey and I have a soft spot in my heart for surfers, as everyone knows). I felt a little bummed that we only got him for a week, but was not sad that we only had to have two yoga classes with him, he is a hardass teacher for sure!
Friday. THE BIG DAY! Our official last day of Bikram's Yoga College! The day was perfect! Rajashree taught the morning class and it was beautiful. I placed my mat right in front of her and admired her beauty and grace. I definitely had some tears flowing, tears of joy and a little sadness for this experience coming to an end. We then had our last "lecture" which was actually a session for students to ask questions and share their stories about how they found the yoga and what brought them here. Let me just say there was not enough Kleenex in the building that afternoon, we, and I do mean WE as in all 300 of us, were choked up and very emotional. The inspiring stories just kept coming one after another, my only regret was that we didnt do this week one. We got to see people in a whole new light. I was touched, inspired and moved beyond words. I love my Fall 2008 peeps! :) Then it was time for our final yoga class, class #99! And of course Bikram, Boss himself lead us. The room was jammed packed with visitors and the vibe was right! Bikram was in a great mood and lead the best class ever! As class came closer and closer to the end the emotions built. And one of the highlights for me was when Bikram called me out saying that I had one of the best rabbits out of everyone in training! WOW! Not bad for a girl who entered TT with true hatred for Rabbit pose! I was thrilled. The end of class came and all of us requested #3 on Bikrams' CD, it was our theme song and he delivered, as soon as the song (which is Bikram singing with techno beats, classsic!) started everyone got up from Savasana and started dancing, hugging, crying, celebrating, yes, even Bikram! He was dancing and smiling, it was so adorable. I love him so much! It was a beautiful ending to TT and I will never forget that night. Oh but that was not the end, the talent show was that night, and whoa talent is what we had in deed, I was shocked to see the talent of my peers. The night was so FUN! Everyone dresssed up to see the "show" and we were greeted with pizza and beverages as we took our seats. So FUN!
I didnt get to bed til 3:30 am, I was filled with adrenaline for the next day.....GRADUATION!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Week 8!
Check, Check, 1-2-3-4
BIKRAM IS BACK! Oh ya, and we felt it! So before I start in on my stories for the week, have I mentioned yet that this training is the first in about 8 years that Bikram has been so present? He has been here pretty much the entire time minus a couple weeks when he went globe trotting. I had no idea what having him here so much actually meant but to put in generally, it means WE GOT OUR ASSES KICKED!!! Bikram's yoga classes are always everyones most diffucult classes, I think for 2 reason, 1) you want to do your best for him and 2) he makes you do your best for him. He challenges you to your deepest core, its hard to explain HOW he actually does this, but he does. Every night when we exit his class, we all look like a different breed. Worked! His classes are always hotter, harder and heavier (mentally).
Monday. Bikram taught that night and like I said in my last blog, there was a lot of anticipation about class that night, I was nervous but promised myself to stay present (which is the absolute ONLY way to survive here) and try my best. So class was as hard as I thought is would be and then some! At the end of class Bikram told us that he was testing us the entire class and...WE WON! He was very happy! He said he tried to break us all night long and we just kept working hard, didnt give up and proved to him that we had been working really hard while he was away. I for one was relieved that he was pleased but in the back of my mind I had a feeling we werent getting off that easily.
Tuesday mornings class was taught entirely in Spanish. It was the first class I have taken in another language and I really enjoyed it. I was surprised that it really made no differnce that I coulnt understand what was being said, I know the yoga and therefore knew how to do the class in unison with everyone else. It was actually very meditative, you just flow with everyone and you stay very present becuase if you think about anything else besides each pose you will be lost. It was a nice change too. Anything differnt at this point is really nice. Tuesday night as you all know was the big election in the states and Bikram was so generous and let have the night off to "watch Obama win" as he put it, and we did just that with a pizza/election party in our friends room. It was one of the best nights here for sure. OBAMA! :)
That brings me to Thursday. Thursdays are always hard for me because I feel so close to the weekend yet its still not quite there yet. I am always pretty exhausted on Thursdays too, they tend to me my most challenging yoga days. Heidi, Niki and I had a luch date with Alison that day (yay, thanks again Alison for coming out to support us all, we loved having you here and appreciated your support so much), it was nice to sit and chat about being a teacher. Then we went to class that night and were a little surprised to not see Bikrams orange towel on his chair on stage. I didnt think too much about it, I thought maybe becuase he lectured all day that he just wasnt feeling up to teaching. So we did class with a visiting teacher, finished in 90 minutes and layed in Savasana when all of a sudden Manali came in and ordered everyone to stay on their mats and not move that we had a surprise....."Check, Check, 1-2-3-4" Oh hell! Bikram walks in, the lights turn on and he says "ok, lets start class" Pure terror went thru everyone. I thought, ok here we go, our tripple! There was massive amounts of crying, laying down, freaking out, my god it looked like a disaster scene. I kept calm and collected and geared up mentally for my thrid class of the day. I thought to myself, well Sash you have never done this before, lets see how strong you really are. And class began. I had no water since I finished my water in the first class. So I pretty thirsty but I thought, I have so much water in me (I have been so bloated out here, its insane) so I just kept telling myself I would be fine without water for another class, again how strong am I? They were allowing people to go out and refill their water bottles and they also had electrolytes too but honestly I didnt want to leave the room for room a couple of reasons 1) I have not left the room once during this trainig and made a deal with myself that I was not going to ever leave the room, so again it was a test of my mental strength and 2) I really thought that if I didnt stay present for 1 moment and allowed weakness or temptation to enter I would break down and not be able to finish class, I was determined to finish. Mid-way Bikram noticed a lot of us losing glucose and fading (I was becaming very dizzy and weak, I started to get a little worried that my body was not going to cooperate with my plan) and he asked who needed candy and few of us raised our hands, so he threw us some a Werther's and we continued. Not only did I finsh the class, I also did not sit out 1 posture nor take a knee! I was very proud of myself. I realized that night how mentally strong I really am. After class I had massive chills and felt exactly how I use to feel after finishing a marathon. Its a very distinct feeling. Its like you have the flu almost, chills, aches, your insides feel tight, headache, no appetite, and pure exhaustion. We also were informed we would have lecuture that evening starting at 10 pm! Yep, you heard me right, lecture STARTED at 10 pm! So Bikram let us know that again he was testing our mental strength, and I guess he just wanted to put a cherry on top of that test because he kept us until almost 3 AM! It was a doozie! Lets just say Friday was very tough, it was the first day I actually thought about skipping class in the morning and doing a make-up class on the weekend but I didnt, I kept true to the process with everyone else and obviously survived.
So that was our week with Bikram being back. It was rough and tough to say the least. I can honeslty say though, I kinda enjoyed the torture. I know I am sick, its the trainer in my though, I am always pushing myself past my limits to see what I am capable of. I learned I am one strong chick and can handle A LOT! It is very empowering! It is what makes my life so amazing and far from average. I dont settle. When you continue to push yourself, you continue to grow and explore new territories within yourself. Its times like those that you learn you really can do anything you put your mind to and thats what I live for, to live the best life there is to live. To do what makes me most happy no matter what it takes to get there. I wish that for everyone. And that is why this yoga is so amazing, because it builds that kind of strength within those who practise it. This yoga is very much a mental strengther along with a body healer and disease preventer. Its good stuff!
Now the WEEKEND! YAY! We all couldnt wait relax and chill. Saturday we did our usual shopping for the week of supplies, dropped off our laundry and got our coconut water! YUM! I will miss that coconut water soooo much! Then laid poolside with Niki and listened to tunes on our ipods. Then it was off to Carlo's casa for a beach house party! Bonfire, candles, reggae music, locals, surfers, and sweet conversations. Again, bittersweet though, loved it so much but the reality of it coming to an end also was hitting home pretty hard. I love it here. I am really going to miss all of this so much.
There is so much more I could go on and on about but time here is precious, in a week from right now, I will be on a plane back to Phoneix! I can hardly beleive it. It seems surreal. I am really having mixed feelings about this expereince coming to an end. I know I would NEVER want to do this again and yet its been the most amazing expereince of my life! I am beyond grateful for it and will cherish it for the rest of my life. All I can really do at this point is embrace every last minute here.
I wish you all much health and happiness.
Namaste~
Your Yogini
xoxox
BIKRAM IS BACK! Oh ya, and we felt it! So before I start in on my stories for the week, have I mentioned yet that this training is the first in about 8 years that Bikram has been so present? He has been here pretty much the entire time minus a couple weeks when he went globe trotting. I had no idea what having him here so much actually meant but to put in generally, it means WE GOT OUR ASSES KICKED!!! Bikram's yoga classes are always everyones most diffucult classes, I think for 2 reason, 1) you want to do your best for him and 2) he makes you do your best for him. He challenges you to your deepest core, its hard to explain HOW he actually does this, but he does. Every night when we exit his class, we all look like a different breed. Worked! His classes are always hotter, harder and heavier (mentally).
Monday. Bikram taught that night and like I said in my last blog, there was a lot of anticipation about class that night, I was nervous but promised myself to stay present (which is the absolute ONLY way to survive here) and try my best. So class was as hard as I thought is would be and then some! At the end of class Bikram told us that he was testing us the entire class and...WE WON! He was very happy! He said he tried to break us all night long and we just kept working hard, didnt give up and proved to him that we had been working really hard while he was away. I for one was relieved that he was pleased but in the back of my mind I had a feeling we werent getting off that easily.
Tuesday mornings class was taught entirely in Spanish. It was the first class I have taken in another language and I really enjoyed it. I was surprised that it really made no differnce that I coulnt understand what was being said, I know the yoga and therefore knew how to do the class in unison with everyone else. It was actually very meditative, you just flow with everyone and you stay very present becuase if you think about anything else besides each pose you will be lost. It was a nice change too. Anything differnt at this point is really nice. Tuesday night as you all know was the big election in the states and Bikram was so generous and let have the night off to "watch Obama win" as he put it, and we did just that with a pizza/election party in our friends room. It was one of the best nights here for sure. OBAMA! :)
That brings me to Thursday. Thursdays are always hard for me because I feel so close to the weekend yet its still not quite there yet. I am always pretty exhausted on Thursdays too, they tend to me my most challenging yoga days. Heidi, Niki and I had a luch date with Alison that day (yay, thanks again Alison for coming out to support us all, we loved having you here and appreciated your support so much), it was nice to sit and chat about being a teacher. Then we went to class that night and were a little surprised to not see Bikrams orange towel on his chair on stage. I didnt think too much about it, I thought maybe becuase he lectured all day that he just wasnt feeling up to teaching. So we did class with a visiting teacher, finished in 90 minutes and layed in Savasana when all of a sudden Manali came in and ordered everyone to stay on their mats and not move that we had a surprise....."Check, Check, 1-2-3-4" Oh hell! Bikram walks in, the lights turn on and he says "ok, lets start class" Pure terror went thru everyone. I thought, ok here we go, our tripple! There was massive amounts of crying, laying down, freaking out, my god it looked like a disaster scene. I kept calm and collected and geared up mentally for my thrid class of the day. I thought to myself, well Sash you have never done this before, lets see how strong you really are. And class began. I had no water since I finished my water in the first class. So I pretty thirsty but I thought, I have so much water in me (I have been so bloated out here, its insane) so I just kept telling myself I would be fine without water for another class, again how strong am I? They were allowing people to go out and refill their water bottles and they also had electrolytes too but honestly I didnt want to leave the room for room a couple of reasons 1) I have not left the room once during this trainig and made a deal with myself that I was not going to ever leave the room, so again it was a test of my mental strength and 2) I really thought that if I didnt stay present for 1 moment and allowed weakness or temptation to enter I would break down and not be able to finish class, I was determined to finish. Mid-way Bikram noticed a lot of us losing glucose and fading (I was becaming very dizzy and weak, I started to get a little worried that my body was not going to cooperate with my plan) and he asked who needed candy and few of us raised our hands, so he threw us some a Werther's and we continued. Not only did I finsh the class, I also did not sit out 1 posture nor take a knee! I was very proud of myself. I realized that night how mentally strong I really am. After class I had massive chills and felt exactly how I use to feel after finishing a marathon. Its a very distinct feeling. Its like you have the flu almost, chills, aches, your insides feel tight, headache, no appetite, and pure exhaustion. We also were informed we would have lecuture that evening starting at 10 pm! Yep, you heard me right, lecture STARTED at 10 pm! So Bikram let us know that again he was testing our mental strength, and I guess he just wanted to put a cherry on top of that test because he kept us until almost 3 AM! It was a doozie! Lets just say Friday was very tough, it was the first day I actually thought about skipping class in the morning and doing a make-up class on the weekend but I didnt, I kept true to the process with everyone else and obviously survived.
So that was our week with Bikram being back. It was rough and tough to say the least. I can honeslty say though, I kinda enjoyed the torture. I know I am sick, its the trainer in my though, I am always pushing myself past my limits to see what I am capable of. I learned I am one strong chick and can handle A LOT! It is very empowering! It is what makes my life so amazing and far from average. I dont settle. When you continue to push yourself, you continue to grow and explore new territories within yourself. Its times like those that you learn you really can do anything you put your mind to and thats what I live for, to live the best life there is to live. To do what makes me most happy no matter what it takes to get there. I wish that for everyone. And that is why this yoga is so amazing, because it builds that kind of strength within those who practise it. This yoga is very much a mental strengther along with a body healer and disease preventer. Its good stuff!
Now the WEEKEND! YAY! We all couldnt wait relax and chill. Saturday we did our usual shopping for the week of supplies, dropped off our laundry and got our coconut water! YUM! I will miss that coconut water soooo much! Then laid poolside with Niki and listened to tunes on our ipods. Then it was off to Carlo's casa for a beach house party! Bonfire, candles, reggae music, locals, surfers, and sweet conversations. Again, bittersweet though, loved it so much but the reality of it coming to an end also was hitting home pretty hard. I love it here. I am really going to miss all of this so much.
There is so much more I could go on and on about but time here is precious, in a week from right now, I will be on a plane back to Phoneix! I can hardly beleive it. It seems surreal. I am really having mixed feelings about this expereince coming to an end. I know I would NEVER want to do this again and yet its been the most amazing expereince of my life! I am beyond grateful for it and will cherish it for the rest of my life. All I can really do at this point is embrace every last minute here.
I wish you all much health and happiness.
Namaste~
Your Yogini
xoxox
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Week 7!
Bananas and Bass
Week 7. I am finding it a little more difficult to write these blogs as time goes on, not sure why, maybe because time here is flying by at warp speed and I feel like there is barely time to take in everything that is happening. I am trying to just stay present in every moment here and in doing so you just kinda lose all the extra chatter in your mind about whats gone on, going on and going to go on. Staying present is very calming. Its funny how detached you become. I was just saying this morning that all the feelings of "missing" have kinda dissipated, not is a heartless way but more in a non-attachment way. Hard to explain but it is a very serene feeling; to just be happy where you are in the moment, not living in the future or past. No expectations and no regret. To just be.
Nicole's visit felt literally like a blink of an eye. Too fast for sure. It was so great to have her here though. We had some great dinner and breakfast talks and I even had the honor of having her in my posture clinic one day! No pressure, right? ;) THANK YOU again so much Nicole for coming out and supporting us, you have no idea how much it meant to me! Love you and see you soon.
This week was again full of dialogue, I always know when I have hit dialogue overload because I become very stressed and all the stress symptoms returned this week. No worries though, I got thru it and we only have 1 more posture to deliver! We had a few nice lectures that I really enjoyed, very contraversal but for me I agreed with a lot of the material presented so I really liked the conversations. Halloween was fun, for the evening class everyone wore orange and black or costumes, so the energy was really festive. Then for evening lecture they provided candy for us and a bunch of us dressed up in costume (Heidi and I were 80's chicks).
The weekend came super fast and we were excited to celebrate the Halloween Holiday Mexico style! A bunch of us girls headed into Acapulco town on Saturday night to see the Festival of the Dead, it was really cool, offerings were set up all over (these are like gravesites kinda, with flowers, candles, pictures, bread etc. they are offerings for the spirits when they return on that night). There were kids in costume "trick-or-treating". We had a nice little dinner in a reatuarant that overlooked the festival and then got some chocolate covered frozen bananas and headed for the disco public bus to take us to a night club where we were to meet up with some more yogis. So we get on this disco bus, blue lights and loud disco music pumping, it was a party in it self. Everyone took their places and I chose mine spot in the back of the bus where the bass was boomin' and when asked if I was ok back there, I smiled in delight and said "oh ya, I'm great back here with my banana and bass". It was a highlight for the evening for sure, guess you had to be there....
We just returned from Bonfil Playa once again after another great day at the beach! My heart is the most content at the ocean. I am really going to miss that beach and honestly am feeling a little bittersweet about there only being 2 more weeks of all this. I really love Acapulco, the people and culture, the beuty, its all so great and I am going to really miss it here.
So thats about it. Like I said, only 2 more weeks. Crazy. Bikram is back tomorrow and I am sure he will kick our asses in class for the last 2 weeks, I cant lie, I am nervous. I also am excited for his lectures again, I honestly have missed him, in a weird love/hate sorta way.
I wish you all much health, happiness and ease of well-being.
xoxoxo
Sash
P.S. THANK YOU to everyone who left a comment and all the support you all provided! So kind. I was very surprised to see that so many of you that are reading this blog have never met me but have found interest in my blog, so thank you. And if you have not yet left a comment, please do so, it truly is the highlight of my days here when I recieve a comment. :)
Week 7. I am finding it a little more difficult to write these blogs as time goes on, not sure why, maybe because time here is flying by at warp speed and I feel like there is barely time to take in everything that is happening. I am trying to just stay present in every moment here and in doing so you just kinda lose all the extra chatter in your mind about whats gone on, going on and going to go on. Staying present is very calming. Its funny how detached you become. I was just saying this morning that all the feelings of "missing" have kinda dissipated, not is a heartless way but more in a non-attachment way. Hard to explain but it is a very serene feeling; to just be happy where you are in the moment, not living in the future or past. No expectations and no regret. To just be.
Nicole's visit felt literally like a blink of an eye. Too fast for sure. It was so great to have her here though. We had some great dinner and breakfast talks and I even had the honor of having her in my posture clinic one day! No pressure, right? ;) THANK YOU again so much Nicole for coming out and supporting us, you have no idea how much it meant to me! Love you and see you soon.
This week was again full of dialogue, I always know when I have hit dialogue overload because I become very stressed and all the stress symptoms returned this week. No worries though, I got thru it and we only have 1 more posture to deliver! We had a few nice lectures that I really enjoyed, very contraversal but for me I agreed with a lot of the material presented so I really liked the conversations. Halloween was fun, for the evening class everyone wore orange and black or costumes, so the energy was really festive. Then for evening lecture they provided candy for us and a bunch of us dressed up in costume (Heidi and I were 80's chicks).
The weekend came super fast and we were excited to celebrate the Halloween Holiday Mexico style! A bunch of us girls headed into Acapulco town on Saturday night to see the Festival of the Dead, it was really cool, offerings were set up all over (these are like gravesites kinda, with flowers, candles, pictures, bread etc. they are offerings for the spirits when they return on that night). There were kids in costume "trick-or-treating". We had a nice little dinner in a reatuarant that overlooked the festival and then got some chocolate covered frozen bananas and headed for the disco public bus to take us to a night club where we were to meet up with some more yogis. So we get on this disco bus, blue lights and loud disco music pumping, it was a party in it self. Everyone took their places and I chose mine spot in the back of the bus where the bass was boomin' and when asked if I was ok back there, I smiled in delight and said "oh ya, I'm great back here with my banana and bass". It was a highlight for the evening for sure, guess you had to be there....
We just returned from Bonfil Playa once again after another great day at the beach! My heart is the most content at the ocean. I am really going to miss that beach and honestly am feeling a little bittersweet about there only being 2 more weeks of all this. I really love Acapulco, the people and culture, the beuty, its all so great and I am going to really miss it here.
So thats about it. Like I said, only 2 more weeks. Crazy. Bikram is back tomorrow and I am sure he will kick our asses in class for the last 2 weeks, I cant lie, I am nervous. I also am excited for his lectures again, I honestly have missed him, in a weird love/hate sorta way.
I wish you all much health, happiness and ease of well-being.
xoxoxo
Sash
P.S. THANK YOU to everyone who left a comment and all the support you all provided! So kind. I was very surprised to see that so many of you that are reading this blog have never met me but have found interest in my blog, so thank you. And if you have not yet left a comment, please do so, it truly is the highlight of my days here when I recieve a comment. :)
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Week 6!
Oh so SIXy!
Another week down and only 3 more to go! Only 33 more yoga classes out of 97 total! 2/3 down, 1/3 left. It feels like we can finally see some light at the end of this long ass insane tunnel. Its relieving for sure!
Week 6 was the best yet. Rajashree returned on Monday (Raj is Bikrams's beautiful, graceful, powerful, intelliegent, caring and loving wife) and it was so amazing to hear her guide us thru the week with much ease. She taught class for us every morning, which was a complete treat. We then had lectures with her all week as well, all about the benefits of Bikram yoga. So inspiring! It was also a really nice break from posture clinics too. :) The concept of time here is a trip, the days and weeks in general fly by but the minutes and moments in themselves seem to be long and a lot of the time, painful. But all in all, we are flying right thru this with much ease, I have to say. I am very proud of Heidi and I, we spend minimal time complaining or speaking or thinking negative thoughts in general. Most of the time if they come up for one of us, we get them out and then move on. Its really nice. And I feel like it is such a great quality to have developed and stregthened here. I know in life there will always be days or things that just dont seem to go your way but if you can learn to move thru them as swiftly as possible the more room for positivity in your world and less room for negativity. So the goal I set last week to make the last 4 weeks as positive as possible, so far has been accomplished and I plan on keeping it that way!
The talks of graduation are starting to become more frequent amongst us students and the staff here and it feels a little unreal. It is a little bitter sweet I must admit, I have really made some great friends here and many that live very far away like-London...really Rachel? :( But the bright side of that is, TRAVELING to visit all these amazing friends. :) Today I said to Heidi that this little world we have created here is really feeling comfortable and normal. Scarry right? I still struggle every Saturday when we grocery shop though. My fitness mind that is obsessed with reading every label before buying anything, is still having a hard time with the kilogram/kcal spanish translations?? It will be such a treat to be back home and pick up a box and understand what is inside! I gotta say though, its quite stimulating, we really enjoy our trip to Mega a little more than we should probably.
Stress levels have been low this week and thank god for that, because I am not sure if some of the people here could take another hell week. I have heard a lot of elevator talk about frustrations people are going thru. I think a lot of people here just kinda hit their patience wall. Ya know? Its not easy living with 300 people. And we are together ALL THE TIME! There is really no such thing as your own space here, we live togther, eat together, study together, sweat together, learn together...we do it all TOGETHER! Its amazing how well we have gotten along. Next week should be another doozy, we have only 6 more postures to get thru and I predict we will finish this week, so its going to be mad studying and memorizing! I cant wait to finish though. :)
Nicole, our studio owner at PV arrives tomorrow and Heidi and I could not be more excited, we have been counting down the days until her arrival since we have been here. Its going to be so comforting to see a familiar face! YAY!! Oh and on that note, we are officially on the PV schedule as teachers!!! So exciting! Nervous excitement but excitement none the less. ;) For all you PV students, please be patient and bare with us as we work thru the kinks of teaching this wonderful yoga. When we teach our first class, it will be the first time that we will ever had said the entire dialogue all together! At training we learn one posture at a time and only say it once in front of the group, so you can only imagine what it will be like for us to say it all continuously and 2 sets of everything too! WHOA! It going to be quite the experience. Wish me luck! :) I can say with 100% certainty however that I am coming back to PV as a teacher to serve my students and I am fully committed to each and everyone of the students having and living the healthiest and best lives possible! I promise to give 100% of myself and all that I have learned here to you. It is my goal to share and spread my passion for this yoga with you all.
Tonight we have a special dinner for all us yogi's put on by the hotel, complete with a bon fire marshmellow roasting session on the beach! Yes! Then a few of us friends are gonna head to the reggae bar down the road to listen to some good music for a little bit. Tomorrow is surfing day! I cant wait! I have been looking forward to surfing all week! We have plans to head down to Bonfil Playa again to surf and study. :)
Thats it, things are all good. I am feeling really awesome. Lots of energy and stregth these days. I am in very positive spirits and overall just really happy.
I hope you are all well, happy and healthy!
Lots of love to you,
xoxox
Sash
P.S. I have one special request from all of you, if you are reading this blog will you PLEASE leave me a comment? At the bottom right here, you see where is says
0comments, if you click on that link you can leave a comment for me. I am very curious as to who has been following along with this blog and it would mean the world to me to find out, so please just take a minute and say hello, k? THANK YOU! :)
Another week down and only 3 more to go! Only 33 more yoga classes out of 97 total! 2/3 down, 1/3 left. It feels like we can finally see some light at the end of this long ass insane tunnel. Its relieving for sure!
Week 6 was the best yet. Rajashree returned on Monday (Raj is Bikrams's beautiful, graceful, powerful, intelliegent, caring and loving wife) and it was so amazing to hear her guide us thru the week with much ease. She taught class for us every morning, which was a complete treat. We then had lectures with her all week as well, all about the benefits of Bikram yoga. So inspiring! It was also a really nice break from posture clinics too. :) The concept of time here is a trip, the days and weeks in general fly by but the minutes and moments in themselves seem to be long and a lot of the time, painful. But all in all, we are flying right thru this with much ease, I have to say. I am very proud of Heidi and I, we spend minimal time complaining or speaking or thinking negative thoughts in general. Most of the time if they come up for one of us, we get them out and then move on. Its really nice. And I feel like it is such a great quality to have developed and stregthened here. I know in life there will always be days or things that just dont seem to go your way but if you can learn to move thru them as swiftly as possible the more room for positivity in your world and less room for negativity. So the goal I set last week to make the last 4 weeks as positive as possible, so far has been accomplished and I plan on keeping it that way!
The talks of graduation are starting to become more frequent amongst us students and the staff here and it feels a little unreal. It is a little bitter sweet I must admit, I have really made some great friends here and many that live very far away like-London...really Rachel? :( But the bright side of that is, TRAVELING to visit all these amazing friends. :) Today I said to Heidi that this little world we have created here is really feeling comfortable and normal. Scarry right? I still struggle every Saturday when we grocery shop though. My fitness mind that is obsessed with reading every label before buying anything, is still having a hard time with the kilogram/kcal spanish translations?? It will be such a treat to be back home and pick up a box and understand what is inside! I gotta say though, its quite stimulating, we really enjoy our trip to Mega a little more than we should probably.
Stress levels have been low this week and thank god for that, because I am not sure if some of the people here could take another hell week. I have heard a lot of elevator talk about frustrations people are going thru. I think a lot of people here just kinda hit their patience wall. Ya know? Its not easy living with 300 people. And we are together ALL THE TIME! There is really no such thing as your own space here, we live togther, eat together, study together, sweat together, learn together...we do it all TOGETHER! Its amazing how well we have gotten along. Next week should be another doozy, we have only 6 more postures to get thru and I predict we will finish this week, so its going to be mad studying and memorizing! I cant wait to finish though. :)
Nicole, our studio owner at PV arrives tomorrow and Heidi and I could not be more excited, we have been counting down the days until her arrival since we have been here. Its going to be so comforting to see a familiar face! YAY!! Oh and on that note, we are officially on the PV schedule as teachers!!! So exciting! Nervous excitement but excitement none the less. ;) For all you PV students, please be patient and bare with us as we work thru the kinks of teaching this wonderful yoga. When we teach our first class, it will be the first time that we will ever had said the entire dialogue all together! At training we learn one posture at a time and only say it once in front of the group, so you can only imagine what it will be like for us to say it all continuously and 2 sets of everything too! WHOA! It going to be quite the experience. Wish me luck! :) I can say with 100% certainty however that I am coming back to PV as a teacher to serve my students and I am fully committed to each and everyone of the students having and living the healthiest and best lives possible! I promise to give 100% of myself and all that I have learned here to you. It is my goal to share and spread my passion for this yoga with you all.
Tonight we have a special dinner for all us yogi's put on by the hotel, complete with a bon fire marshmellow roasting session on the beach! Yes! Then a few of us friends are gonna head to the reggae bar down the road to listen to some good music for a little bit. Tomorrow is surfing day! I cant wait! I have been looking forward to surfing all week! We have plans to head down to Bonfil Playa again to surf and study. :)
Thats it, things are all good. I am feeling really awesome. Lots of energy and stregth these days. I am in very positive spirits and overall just really happy.
I hope you are all well, happy and healthy!
Lots of love to you,
xoxox
Sash
P.S. I have one special request from all of you, if you are reading this blog will you PLEASE leave me a comment? At the bottom right here, you see where is says
0comments, if you click on that link you can leave a comment for me. I am very curious as to who has been following along with this blog and it would mean the world to me to find out, so please just take a minute and say hello, k? THANK YOU! :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Week 5!
I'm still ALIVE!
This week has come and gone faster than all the weeks before. That is a good thing! A really, really good thing. :)
There is not a whole lot to report this week, maybe because it was a bit of a blur, the days were pretty much all the same (except for one really special night at lecture). We had posture clinics every afternoon for 4 hours and then again all the evenings too, another 2 hours, so there was a TON of memorization happening in my world. Maybe thats why the week was a blur, my brain was full of dialogue and there was not much room for any other thoughts... I dont know, I officially have "Yoga Brain".
We were blessed on Sunday night with news that we got approved to change rooms, yay! Thank you again so much for you help Joe! :) We are now proud tentants in the Princessa Tower, with an amazing ocean view and internet in our room (this is pure luxury here, I am SO grateful)! By the way our room # is now 2519, in case you would like to find me. It has made all the difference in the world being in a room where we get to watch the sunset over the ocean every single night and sleep with the sounds of waves crashing.
We had another little earthquake on Thursday night around midnight, its always a trip when your bed just starts shaking out of no where but they are not as scarry as before for me because we have had so many I guess I am kinda getting use to them.
So, the special lecture night, it was Thursay night, and it was a super powerful night for me. We had a really emotional heartfelt lecture lead by some senior teachers on the topic of "healing" and the healing power that takes place in our bodies, minds and souls because of this yoga. It was really beautiful and I feel honored to be a part of the conversation that night. Then Manali (who is Bikrams niece and his assistant) gave us a huge gift, our first Meditation. She lead us thru it with a chant from India that she has heard from her father since she was 5 years old. It was beyond beautiful. And there was some really amazing feelings and healing that took place in my heart that night. I am forever grateful for it. And I cant describe in words the vibe that was present when 300 of us chanted "Om" together to close the meditation. It was incredible. Manali let us know that the meditation that night was for us to "let go", she had been noticing that a lot of us were still holding on to so much stress and anxiety and she really expressed that it was time to let it go! She also said in order for that to happen two things really needed to be present; 1)happiness and 2) mercy (forgiveness). It really hit home for me because earlier that night I was looking at photo's of my life (which I really had not done since I have been here) and I told Heidi that I really was starting to see myself with different eyes. This is good because I think I have had a bit of a disorted self imagine for the last couple of years. It felt really awesome. The first day we were here Rajashree (Bikrams's wife) requested that we fall into unconditional love with ourselves while we are here. At the time I thought, ya that sounds good, but how do I do that? True, honest unconditional love, for myself? Well, my friends, I think the process has began and it has taken place completely organically. Authentically. Self Realization, is where true happiness lies and I am beginning to open my eyes to what it is all about. Anyways, I am probably getting a little deep for a blog but I wanted to share with you all that I am really finding true happiness in my own heart and realizing for the first time that happiness in my heart IS ultimate happiness. I spoke to my mom about this very topic before coming out here, remember mom? And she assured me that I would have some clarity on the many questions in my mind and she was right! Mom, you have no idea how present you were in my meditation that night, it literally brought tears to my eyes. You are an amazing woman and I am blessed to have you as my mom. Thank you for all that you have done for me, I am forever grateful. And thank you for being the amazing soul and source of love that you are. I love you deeply. xoxo ...And HAPPY early BIRTHDAY! :)
Wow, well, thats all I got. I am comitted to making the next 4 weeks as positive as possible, and trust me it is a conscience effort that has to be made every moment of every day here. Its easy to get wrapped up in the stress and negativity, we are all so exhausted, mentally, physicall, and emotionally that its a true challenge to stay strong. I have a feeling however that the next 4 weeks are going to go by quite rapidly, so I am committed to embracing them for all that they offer.
I send lots of love and light to you all and my hope is that your hearts are all happy and healthy! I miss you all very much.
Namaste,
~your yogi chick~
P. S.-PLEASE be sure and read my roomie Heidi's blog too! She does such an amazing job.
this is our view from our room :)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
HALF WAY!!
Double Hump Day!
Today was a GOOD day! Its Wednesday (which yes we celebrate every week) and its also the official HALF WAY POINT of training!!! SWEETNESS!
Can hardly believe we are half way thru this and at the same time, I can hardly believe we are ONLY half way thru this. Either way, I am celebrating!
And, I have to admit tonight at Posture Clinic I actually went in to it feeling low energy, tired, sore, headache, simply not in the mood and ended up leaving at the end of the night on a happy high! My group is a total riot, we dominate the Posture Clinics, with our group 6 gang signs and raps, we are official the "ganster group" and we are on a serious mission to have fun! And tonight that finally happened complete with rhymes flowing and pre-jitter jiving, it was a good time....yep you heard me right, I laughed out loud and enjoyed the evening! FINALLY.
Oh and to kick it all off, they ended the class tonight by blaring Bon Jovi's, "Living on a Prayer", you know "whoa, we're half way there, whoa oh, living on a prayer, take my hand, we'll make I swear....". It was pretty funny, 300 people pumped in Savasana singing their sweaty hearts out. Ya, I know, we know how to have a fun around here. :)
Just wanted to fill you all in on my half way mark mood.
Namaste~
Today was a GOOD day! Its Wednesday (which yes we celebrate every week) and its also the official HALF WAY POINT of training!!! SWEETNESS!
Can hardly believe we are half way thru this and at the same time, I can hardly believe we are ONLY half way thru this. Either way, I am celebrating!
And, I have to admit tonight at Posture Clinic I actually went in to it feeling low energy, tired, sore, headache, simply not in the mood and ended up leaving at the end of the night on a happy high! My group is a total riot, we dominate the Posture Clinics, with our group 6 gang signs and raps, we are official the "ganster group" and we are on a serious mission to have fun! And tonight that finally happened complete with rhymes flowing and pre-jitter jiving, it was a good time....yep you heard me right, I laughed out loud and enjoyed the evening! FINALLY.
Oh and to kick it all off, they ended the class tonight by blaring Bon Jovi's, "Living on a Prayer", you know "whoa, we're half way there, whoa oh, living on a prayer, take my hand, we'll make I swear....". It was pretty funny, 300 people pumped in Savasana singing their sweaty hearts out. Ya, I know, we know how to have a fun around here. :)
Just wanted to fill you all in on my half way mark mood.
Namaste~
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Week 4!
97% Humidity and Carbon Dioxide Overload
Well, well, well, this week started off very intense to say the least...Ok so I am sure you are starting to gather by now things here DONT get easier, and actually some senior teachers even admitted to us that this training is designed to continue to be extraordinarily difficult thru the entire 9 weeks, its all part of the "process".
So, Monday night's class with Bikram was intense (as always) but there seemed to be a lot less air in the "chamber" that night and many yogi's were down for the count, lots of throwing up, muscle cramps, crying, you know, the usual, but Bikram was not happy about this display going into week 4 and he let us know it, after telling us how lazy we were and how much he hated lazy people and some other encouraging words that I will leave to your imagination (and anyone who knows him can surely fill in the gaps) he made us all sit down before Camel so he could yell at us real good for at least 10 minutes before he got so updset that he took his mic off and walked out of the room commanding us to leave, class was over. Pure Silence. But what Bikram says goes, so I got up, rolled up my mat and headed on my way (truthfully, I couldnt wait to exit the torture chamber that night, I was craving AIR, speaking of craving, oh I will have to talk about those later). So as we filed into lecture with him that night, the mood was very somber. We were strictly instructed to not speak or move. It felt like we were 5 and in serious BIG trouble. When Bikram entered the first words out of his mouth were "what, is it someone's funeral?" "you guys think I am in a bad mood or something? I am not in a bad mood". We all sat there in pure curiousity as to what he was going to tell us next, especailly since we found out that Bikram has NEVER walked out of a class before. Anyways, he began to explain that something was not right with the room. He had a very strong feeling that something really had to be wrong, because there was no way we all should be struggling so much still. He recognized that we were all here because of our love for the this yoga and that we wanted nothing more than to try our hardest (especially for him) and do our best while in class. So being that this studio is the first he ever built in a basement, after speaking with other teachers, he called the engineer who built it and demanded he board a plane immediately and check the conditions of the room. So basically the research proved us not to be weak asses at all. As a matter of fact, the humidity in the room was reading 97%!!! Holy Hell! The humidity is usally 50% in a normal Bikram Yoga Class and for those of you who have done or do Bikram yoga know that at 50% you feel like you cant breath as is at times. The carbon dioxide levels are also very high due to the fact we are low in the basement and there is no fresh air. So with the combonation of breathing carbon dioxide and wet air, you can only imagine why the last 3 weeks have literally kicked our asses! Bikram really started to question things when triathletes were being sent home (out of training) due to being in the medical clinic too much and not being able to get health enough to practise. Sooo, there are now something like 15 fans that were installed all over the walls. Its helpful but the fresh air problem is still a present. It feels better but definitily not like home at all. We sat with two visiting teachers for lunch today and they said they couldnt belive how hot the room was, they said they never had to take a knee or lay down at all at their training and they admitted to spending most of the class on the their backs last night. Its intense. Bikram has said now more than once that he will never again build a studio in a basement, I cant say that I am happy to be the test tube on this one though. I think you got the point, ya? I have to say though, I feel pretty tough, I have been powering thru each and every class feeling pretty damn strong. Its been hard as hell, dont get me wrong when I say I feel strong but every single day I question how I am going to make it thru 2 of these damn classes but somehow I do and I feel like I get that much more strength to take with me when I leave.
Posture clinics have had their highs and lows for me this week, the "perfectionist" in me could say a lot more about this but as I learned, it is all just an excuse to make mistakes anyways and what purpose does that serve anyways? I am working thru some old baggage that I have been carrying around with me for many years and I am finally getting to the point in my life that I am ready to get rid of it for good! But truly I know that what I am going thru is exactly what I am meant to go thru, it is my path to my next destination. I am confident that one sort thru their shit before they find their true gem. Its hard to shine thru shit. ;)
The president of Mexico is here at the hotel this week, so thats exciting. Kinda.
There is warnings of Hurricane Odile approaching the pacific coast but even though the hotel is taking precautionary measures, it looks like Odile has taken a turn and should not hit landfall. However, we will most likely get a pretty nasty storm starting tonight. The only downfall to this news is that my girls and I had a whole beach day planned with one of the locals who is in training with us, his buddies and some other surfers here who were eager to get wet. I dont know if I mentioned this before but we have been advised to stay out of the ocean due to all the rain, apparently the run off here in Acapulco is far from pleasant and the sharks seem to be in full force having a good ol' time. So pretty bummed,I was really looking forward to a kickass beach day filled with tanning, surfing, fish tacos, a dj rocking some sweet tunes and of course DIALOGUE! :)
The evening lectures have been a bit tortuous in themselves to be quite honest, they are very long and pretty painful (my sciatica is not my friend during these nights especaially), physically and mentally. Just imagine working your ass off all day, and then having to go into a nightly lecture that starts at 9 pm and usually goes into the wee morning. Bikram has some great wisdom to share and truthfully I wish I had more energy to engage in the words he speaks but after a couple of hours of him lecturing, I am usually doing everything in my power to just keep my damn eyes from closing. Oh and even better, the Bollywood movies we have had the luxury of watching ;( Have you ever seen one? They are quite the experience. These movies NEVER end! I swear to god, these films are insane, the one we are in the middle of watching is 17 hours in total length! We have only watched something like 8 or so hours of it so far, if that, sooo... oh man just the thought makes me sick to my stomach. Subject change, quick...On a more positive note, you have no idea how good my bed feels at the end of the day though, oh, so good.
I think that wraps up all the excitement on this end. I recieved lots of love from you guys this week- THANK YOU!!! You made my week!;) You know who you are and I appreicate you so much!! I really appreicate you in my life and all of your love and support.
I send my love to you all and miss you all very much!
xoxoox
Namaste~
Sash
Sunday Update:
Just got back to the hotel after the most amazing day on the beach with the local boy here, his buddies and a crew of yogi's. Spent the day laying on the beach, listening to reggae, laying in hammocks, studying dialogue, eating fresh fish tacos, watching surfers and having some really good conversations....oh my heart is so HAPPY! I needed that so much! xoxo
Well, well, well, this week started off very intense to say the least...Ok so I am sure you are starting to gather by now things here DONT get easier, and actually some senior teachers even admitted to us that this training is designed to continue to be extraordinarily difficult thru the entire 9 weeks, its all part of the "process".
So, Monday night's class with Bikram was intense (as always) but there seemed to be a lot less air in the "chamber" that night and many yogi's were down for the count, lots of throwing up, muscle cramps, crying, you know, the usual, but Bikram was not happy about this display going into week 4 and he let us know it, after telling us how lazy we were and how much he hated lazy people and some other encouraging words that I will leave to your imagination (and anyone who knows him can surely fill in the gaps) he made us all sit down before Camel so he could yell at us real good for at least 10 minutes before he got so updset that he took his mic off and walked out of the room commanding us to leave, class was over. Pure Silence. But what Bikram says goes, so I got up, rolled up my mat and headed on my way (truthfully, I couldnt wait to exit the torture chamber that night, I was craving AIR, speaking of craving, oh I will have to talk about those later). So as we filed into lecture with him that night, the mood was very somber. We were strictly instructed to not speak or move. It felt like we were 5 and in serious BIG trouble. When Bikram entered the first words out of his mouth were "what, is it someone's funeral?" "you guys think I am in a bad mood or something? I am not in a bad mood". We all sat there in pure curiousity as to what he was going to tell us next, especailly since we found out that Bikram has NEVER walked out of a class before. Anyways, he began to explain that something was not right with the room. He had a very strong feeling that something really had to be wrong, because there was no way we all should be struggling so much still. He recognized that we were all here because of our love for the this yoga and that we wanted nothing more than to try our hardest (especially for him) and do our best while in class. So being that this studio is the first he ever built in a basement, after speaking with other teachers, he called the engineer who built it and demanded he board a plane immediately and check the conditions of the room. So basically the research proved us not to be weak asses at all. As a matter of fact, the humidity in the room was reading 97%!!! Holy Hell! The humidity is usally 50% in a normal Bikram Yoga Class and for those of you who have done or do Bikram yoga know that at 50% you feel like you cant breath as is at times. The carbon dioxide levels are also very high due to the fact we are low in the basement and there is no fresh air. So with the combonation of breathing carbon dioxide and wet air, you can only imagine why the last 3 weeks have literally kicked our asses! Bikram really started to question things when triathletes were being sent home (out of training) due to being in the medical clinic too much and not being able to get health enough to practise. Sooo, there are now something like 15 fans that were installed all over the walls. Its helpful but the fresh air problem is still a present. It feels better but definitily not like home at all. We sat with two visiting teachers for lunch today and they said they couldnt belive how hot the room was, they said they never had to take a knee or lay down at all at their training and they admitted to spending most of the class on the their backs last night. Its intense. Bikram has said now more than once that he will never again build a studio in a basement, I cant say that I am happy to be the test tube on this one though. I think you got the point, ya? I have to say though, I feel pretty tough, I have been powering thru each and every class feeling pretty damn strong. Its been hard as hell, dont get me wrong when I say I feel strong but every single day I question how I am going to make it thru 2 of these damn classes but somehow I do and I feel like I get that much more strength to take with me when I leave.
Posture clinics have had their highs and lows for me this week, the "perfectionist" in me could say a lot more about this but as I learned, it is all just an excuse to make mistakes anyways and what purpose does that serve anyways? I am working thru some old baggage that I have been carrying around with me for many years and I am finally getting to the point in my life that I am ready to get rid of it for good! But truly I know that what I am going thru is exactly what I am meant to go thru, it is my path to my next destination. I am confident that one sort thru their shit before they find their true gem. Its hard to shine thru shit. ;)
The president of Mexico is here at the hotel this week, so thats exciting. Kinda.
There is warnings of Hurricane Odile approaching the pacific coast but even though the hotel is taking precautionary measures, it looks like Odile has taken a turn and should not hit landfall. However, we will most likely get a pretty nasty storm starting tonight. The only downfall to this news is that my girls and I had a whole beach day planned with one of the locals who is in training with us, his buddies and some other surfers here who were eager to get wet. I dont know if I mentioned this before but we have been advised to stay out of the ocean due to all the rain, apparently the run off here in Acapulco is far from pleasant and the sharks seem to be in full force having a good ol' time. So pretty bummed,I was really looking forward to a kickass beach day filled with tanning, surfing, fish tacos, a dj rocking some sweet tunes and of course DIALOGUE! :)
The evening lectures have been a bit tortuous in themselves to be quite honest, they are very long and pretty painful (my sciatica is not my friend during these nights especaially), physically and mentally. Just imagine working your ass off all day, and then having to go into a nightly lecture that starts at 9 pm and usually goes into the wee morning. Bikram has some great wisdom to share and truthfully I wish I had more energy to engage in the words he speaks but after a couple of hours of him lecturing, I am usually doing everything in my power to just keep my damn eyes from closing. Oh and even better, the Bollywood movies we have had the luxury of watching ;( Have you ever seen one? They are quite the experience. These movies NEVER end! I swear to god, these films are insane, the one we are in the middle of watching is 17 hours in total length! We have only watched something like 8 or so hours of it so far, if that, sooo... oh man just the thought makes me sick to my stomach. Subject change, quick...On a more positive note, you have no idea how good my bed feels at the end of the day though, oh, so good.
I think that wraps up all the excitement on this end. I recieved lots of love from you guys this week- THANK YOU!!! You made my week!;) You know who you are and I appreicate you so much!! I really appreicate you in my life and all of your love and support.
I send my love to you all and miss you all very much!
xoxoox
Namaste~
Sash
Sunday Update:
Just got back to the hotel after the most amazing day on the beach with the local boy here, his buddies and a crew of yogi's. Spent the day laying on the beach, listening to reggae, laying in hammocks, studying dialogue, eating fresh fish tacos, watching surfers and having some really good conversations....oh my heart is so HAPPY! I needed that so much! xoxo
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Week 3!
Breakdowns and Breakthru's
Alright, so this week was definitely a doozie. I am so happy that it is behind me and according to my calculations, we are officially 1/3 of the way thru all this! Hell Ya! "They" said that we are no longer in the "counting down the days til we get to leave this place" stage but I beg to differ. I am counting. And every moment of everyday matters.
So the week started off pretty decent, had our first Anatomy test which I Aced with flying colors, actually I am pretty sure Heidi and I were the first two people to finish, and in record time none the less! So that was relieving. Then Posture Clinics started that night...for those of you who have no clue what the hell I am speaking about, Posture Clinics are little hotel suite gatherings with about 40 other students and 3 leaders (teachers) grading you on every move you make (literlally, they watch for how you move your arms, hands, eyes, every movemnt, no joke) and every word you speak as you dictate the dialogue as best you can under the oh so comfortable setting provided. :( Really, it is the most fucking nerve racking thing I have ever experienced. It is intense! I came here with very high standards for myself because I have been teaching, training and coaching for over 10 years now, so in my mind I thought, this is going to be a breeze. I am not affraid to speak in front of people, I am great at telling people what to do ;), I can do this no problem. WRONG! Nope! Nice try Sash! I love how almost every expectation I had coming here has been completely shattered into a million little pieces. Its just lovely. So as most of you know, I am a very driven chick, extreamly competitive and a complete PERFECTIONIST, which has served me many times in my life and has pushed me beyond limits most people would never think to explore HOWEVER here, in this enviornment, it has proven to be my worst enemy. So in the first couple of Posture Clinics, I was amongst the first to volunteer (remember, I am very confident at this point that I can do this with no worries) and as I started to spout out my dialgue, that I pracitised a million times, and knew very well, I came acrossed a point in which I forgot the next line and completely blanked on the rest. I mean completely blank. Which in turn made me very uncomfortable becuase I have never had that happen in all the years of me teaching and truly felt so out of character. I was out of my element and felt out of control, and for those of you who know me well, I like control, A LOT! So once again I got slammed on my ass and fell to the bottom of the sea, I was kissing the coral for sure!
Enter my amazing dad who sent me on my way to Mexico with a card that read on the outside envelope "Open When Needed" and Wednesday night, I needed it! Thank you so much Dad! Your card turned my world back around and I cant even express how grateful I am for you and the words you wrote to me, I love you deeply and am so grateful for you. Thank you Thank you Thank you! So to say the least I needed a turn around and thanks to my strong mind and determination (and the help of some really great friends here) I picked myself up and tried, tried again. But this time I succeeded! I rocked my 3rd posture clinic and nailed it! THANK GOD! I needed that! I knew as soon as I could got over my perfectionism and relaxed into it a bit I would do fine but hell that was a mountain to climb, I tell you what. I learned a lot about myself this week for sure.
Yoga this week kicked my ass too! It was weird, week 2 seemed like we all adjusted, then week 3 it was felt like we were fallen soldiers down again. I dont know. It felt like many people were expereincing break downs, mentally and physically. The torture chamber felt really extraordinarily blazing once again and classes felt like they were lasting days not minutes. It again (like week 1) took all I had to make it thru each and every day until FRIDAY! Friday rocked! Both of the yoga classes were taught by amazing visiting teachers, who kicked our asses but made us laugh more times than I have in all classes combined thus far (by the way we are up to class # 32, only 66 classes to go until graduation!). Anyways, I survived (of course) but am very fatigued this weekend. Mentally and physically.
This weekend is going to consist of loads of studying! I know, you guys are all jelous, this all just sounds so fun right? Ha, I think I said something along the lines of this resembling HELL a couple of times this week. Complete and utter HELL. I mean really, there is not a lot of room during the week for comfort, joy, peace, relaxation, serenity, love, well anything good really. From the moment our alarms sound off Monday morning (boot camp style), we are completley emerged until we come up for air Saturday morning (which now are consumed with study groups and such). Good times. This morning I said to Heidi, this is intense college without the fun, without the parties and with a lot of torturous physical extertion. Its just great. "They" keep telling us to "enjoy every moment of this, because it will be over before we know it" and I keep questioning what part of "this" they are speaking of, because so far I am having a difficult time clarifying what moments here are "enjoyable"? Hmm... Pure sarcasm. Kinda.
I got more good news this week, the "real work" begins after graduation. Awesome! There is nothing better to hear while in the midst of all this craziness, that this is just the foundation. This road in a long one. One of the teachers said it best yesterday, she said, "If your students only knew what you went thru to become a Bikram Yoga Teacher, they would bow at your feet instead of complaining that you held them in Triangle for a few seconds too long" but unfortunately no one will ever be able to understand what we are going thru out here. With the exception of other Bikram Yoga teachers, so I am starting to really understand why this community is so strong and friedships created amongst us become lifelong.
Well, thats all I got for ya'll this week. Bottom line, I am cruising along, getting done what needs to be done and moving forward. Staying healthy and as happy as possible. If you feel like sending me some love, I would totally appreciate it. I am open to recieving as much love as possible right now. I beat myself up pretty good this week, oh the joys of being a perfectionist, and even though ultimately I am the only one resposible for providing unconditional love for myself, it is always nice to get some from those I love too.:)
I hope you are all well, staying happy and healthy! Please know that I send much love and light to you all after each and every one of my yoga classes. Its part of my post class meditation. I will continue to keep space in my heart reserved just for you!
With all my love,
xoxoxo
~Sasha
Alright, so this week was definitely a doozie. I am so happy that it is behind me and according to my calculations, we are officially 1/3 of the way thru all this! Hell Ya! "They" said that we are no longer in the "counting down the days til we get to leave this place" stage but I beg to differ. I am counting. And every moment of everyday matters.
So the week started off pretty decent, had our first Anatomy test which I Aced with flying colors, actually I am pretty sure Heidi and I were the first two people to finish, and in record time none the less! So that was relieving. Then Posture Clinics started that night...for those of you who have no clue what the hell I am speaking about, Posture Clinics are little hotel suite gatherings with about 40 other students and 3 leaders (teachers) grading you on every move you make (literlally, they watch for how you move your arms, hands, eyes, every movemnt, no joke) and every word you speak as you dictate the dialogue as best you can under the oh so comfortable setting provided. :( Really, it is the most fucking nerve racking thing I have ever experienced. It is intense! I came here with very high standards for myself because I have been teaching, training and coaching for over 10 years now, so in my mind I thought, this is going to be a breeze. I am not affraid to speak in front of people, I am great at telling people what to do ;), I can do this no problem. WRONG! Nope! Nice try Sash! I love how almost every expectation I had coming here has been completely shattered into a million little pieces. Its just lovely. So as most of you know, I am a very driven chick, extreamly competitive and a complete PERFECTIONIST, which has served me many times in my life and has pushed me beyond limits most people would never think to explore HOWEVER here, in this enviornment, it has proven to be my worst enemy. So in the first couple of Posture Clinics, I was amongst the first to volunteer (remember, I am very confident at this point that I can do this with no worries) and as I started to spout out my dialgue, that I pracitised a million times, and knew very well, I came acrossed a point in which I forgot the next line and completely blanked on the rest. I mean completely blank. Which in turn made me very uncomfortable becuase I have never had that happen in all the years of me teaching and truly felt so out of character. I was out of my element and felt out of control, and for those of you who know me well, I like control, A LOT! So once again I got slammed on my ass and fell to the bottom of the sea, I was kissing the coral for sure!
Enter my amazing dad who sent me on my way to Mexico with a card that read on the outside envelope "Open When Needed" and Wednesday night, I needed it! Thank you so much Dad! Your card turned my world back around and I cant even express how grateful I am for you and the words you wrote to me, I love you deeply and am so grateful for you. Thank you Thank you Thank you! So to say the least I needed a turn around and thanks to my strong mind and determination (and the help of some really great friends here) I picked myself up and tried, tried again. But this time I succeeded! I rocked my 3rd posture clinic and nailed it! THANK GOD! I needed that! I knew as soon as I could got over my perfectionism and relaxed into it a bit I would do fine but hell that was a mountain to climb, I tell you what. I learned a lot about myself this week for sure.
Yoga this week kicked my ass too! It was weird, week 2 seemed like we all adjusted, then week 3 it was felt like we were fallen soldiers down again. I dont know. It felt like many people were expereincing break downs, mentally and physically. The torture chamber felt really extraordinarily blazing once again and classes felt like they were lasting days not minutes. It again (like week 1) took all I had to make it thru each and every day until FRIDAY! Friday rocked! Both of the yoga classes were taught by amazing visiting teachers, who kicked our asses but made us laugh more times than I have in all classes combined thus far (by the way we are up to class # 32, only 66 classes to go until graduation!). Anyways, I survived (of course) but am very fatigued this weekend. Mentally and physically.
This weekend is going to consist of loads of studying! I know, you guys are all jelous, this all just sounds so fun right? Ha, I think I said something along the lines of this resembling HELL a couple of times this week. Complete and utter HELL. I mean really, there is not a lot of room during the week for comfort, joy, peace, relaxation, serenity, love, well anything good really. From the moment our alarms sound off Monday morning (boot camp style), we are completley emerged until we come up for air Saturday morning (which now are consumed with study groups and such). Good times. This morning I said to Heidi, this is intense college without the fun, without the parties and with a lot of torturous physical extertion. Its just great. "They" keep telling us to "enjoy every moment of this, because it will be over before we know it" and I keep questioning what part of "this" they are speaking of, because so far I am having a difficult time clarifying what moments here are "enjoyable"? Hmm... Pure sarcasm. Kinda.
I got more good news this week, the "real work" begins after graduation. Awesome! There is nothing better to hear while in the midst of all this craziness, that this is just the foundation. This road in a long one. One of the teachers said it best yesterday, she said, "If your students only knew what you went thru to become a Bikram Yoga Teacher, they would bow at your feet instead of complaining that you held them in Triangle for a few seconds too long" but unfortunately no one will ever be able to understand what we are going thru out here. With the exception of other Bikram Yoga teachers, so I am starting to really understand why this community is so strong and friedships created amongst us become lifelong.
Well, thats all I got for ya'll this week. Bottom line, I am cruising along, getting done what needs to be done and moving forward. Staying healthy and as happy as possible. If you feel like sending me some love, I would totally appreciate it. I am open to recieving as much love as possible right now. I beat myself up pretty good this week, oh the joys of being a perfectionist, and even though ultimately I am the only one resposible for providing unconditional love for myself, it is always nice to get some from those I love too.:)
I hope you are all well, staying happy and healthy! Please know that I send much love and light to you all after each and every one of my yoga classes. Its part of my post class meditation. I will continue to keep space in my heart reserved just for you!
With all my love,
xoxoxo
~Sasha
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Week 2!
Earthquakes and Such
Another week down! Sweet! This last week has been much better for me than week 1, thank god. I feel like I have adjusted to the humidity and the yoga room a lot more and my practise is actaully starting to resemble the one I had at home. :) No more nausea and all that jazz. Dont get me wrong, its still hard as hell but its (Bikram Yoga) is always hard as hell.
Here's a little run down on my week...
Sunday night, got woken up in the middle of the night by an earthquake, which at first I thought was maybe a dream but was soon confirmed it a reality when I asked Heidi "did you feel that?" and she responded half asleep with a little "ya". Then we had the infamous Emmy Monday morning to teach our class and her opening line was "you guys are all very brave to make it thru the earthquake". No worries not a big deal but the thought of more earthquakes and tsumani's did put a little fear in mind for a minute. I am learing to be careful of my thoughts here, it has happened serveral times now that Heidi and I will be talking about randomness and then it will appear. Like the day we were trippin' on the eel in the fish tank in the restaurant and I was telling her how I use to have an eel in my fish tank years ago and how she thinks eels are completely horrible and wrong and then no joke, later that day we went on a walk and there was an eel on the beach struggling to get back into the water (heidi got a great photo of it). Oh and then there was the talk we had about bats and how when I was little a bat got trapped in my room and scared the living shit out of me and how I hate bats, then literally the next night there was a freakin' bat trapped in the auditorium where we do lectures and it was flying over our heads in circles, like a damn haunted house. So strange. This is very random, I know, but it definitley tripped us out a bit and caused some good laughs too. We laugh a lot, I think its mostly sleep deprivation causing the outbursts but I will take them! So we are trying to be very careful about what we talk about though for sure.
The rest of the week pretty much all runs together;kinda like ground hogs day, we often forget what day it is or when something occured because it all seems the same. Wake up, eat 1/2 a banana, head to class, swim in the salt water pool, shower, eat brunch, go to lecture, back to class, drink a protein shake, back to lecuture and then try to get as much shut eye as possible. Tuesday night however was memberable, class was with Bikram and things were flowing for me, I was in my zone. We got to Triangle pose and I was feeling strong and focused, totally engaged in what I was doing and nothing else, when all of a sudden I hear a roar of gasps and little screams and then Bikram saying "Eathquake, come up, Earthquake, come up, come up Earthquake!" Ya, it took him saying it 3 times for it to register in my brain what was happening. I think that is called meditation. It was again very strange and also an experience that reminded me of a conversation Heidi and I had the day before when she expressed a little fear of "having an earthqueake in the yoga room", again, we are now being more aware of what is coming out of our mouths.
So for the most part this week went according to plan. Except for the fact that my right sciatica is fully inflamed and in a lot of pain. Not fun at all but I am dealing with it best I know how and am convinced it will pass soon. Of course I am still very exhausted daily but I am trusting the process and moving forward. We had some great speakers, got emerged in our Anatomy lessons (which thank goodness are all just a review for me, others are not so lucky and are very stressed about the upcoming exams). I feel like most of us here are adjusting and doing fine. We are all experiencing ups and downs and mood swings are in full bloom but all in all I think we are aware of them and more accepting of them.
Meeting more amazing yogi's daily and getting closer to our little crew and observing and embracing it all the best we can with our "yoga brains".
I am healthy and happy and enjoying the ride. The luxeries I have back home sound very inviting from time to time but I am not even allowing myself to go there in my mind. It will all be there when I get back and I will appreciate everything so much more for sure! I am reserving the weekends for blogging, listening to tunes, dinners out, laying by the pool (we are afterall at a very nice resort) and just indulging in all my little guilty pleasures. It is something I totally look forward to and had no idea how much I would crave!
I hope you are all doing well. I am really missing you all very much! You're in my thoughts, and I appreciate you all in my life. I know that I am very lucky to have such an amazing network of friends and family and I am very grateful for that.
Til next week...
Namaste~
Sash
P.S. I highly recommend checking out my roomie Heidi's blog as well, she is a bit more descriptive on the day to day details here. Good job girl! You can click on her blog from my page, just look over to the right side of the page under my favorite links.
P.P.S. If any of you feel like giving me a call on the weekends the number here is: 52-744-469-1000 room #720
I would love it!
Another week down! Sweet! This last week has been much better for me than week 1, thank god. I feel like I have adjusted to the humidity and the yoga room a lot more and my practise is actaully starting to resemble the one I had at home. :) No more nausea and all that jazz. Dont get me wrong, its still hard as hell but its (Bikram Yoga) is always hard as hell.
Here's a little run down on my week...
Sunday night, got woken up in the middle of the night by an earthquake, which at first I thought was maybe a dream but was soon confirmed it a reality when I asked Heidi "did you feel that?" and she responded half asleep with a little "ya". Then we had the infamous Emmy Monday morning to teach our class and her opening line was "you guys are all very brave to make it thru the earthquake". No worries not a big deal but the thought of more earthquakes and tsumani's did put a little fear in mind for a minute. I am learing to be careful of my thoughts here, it has happened serveral times now that Heidi and I will be talking about randomness and then it will appear. Like the day we were trippin' on the eel in the fish tank in the restaurant and I was telling her how I use to have an eel in my fish tank years ago and how she thinks eels are completely horrible and wrong and then no joke, later that day we went on a walk and there was an eel on the beach struggling to get back into the water (heidi got a great photo of it). Oh and then there was the talk we had about bats and how when I was little a bat got trapped in my room and scared the living shit out of me and how I hate bats, then literally the next night there was a freakin' bat trapped in the auditorium where we do lectures and it was flying over our heads in circles, like a damn haunted house. So strange. This is very random, I know, but it definitley tripped us out a bit and caused some good laughs too. We laugh a lot, I think its mostly sleep deprivation causing the outbursts but I will take them! So we are trying to be very careful about what we talk about though for sure.
The rest of the week pretty much all runs together;kinda like ground hogs day, we often forget what day it is or when something occured because it all seems the same. Wake up, eat 1/2 a banana, head to class, swim in the salt water pool, shower, eat brunch, go to lecture, back to class, drink a protein shake, back to lecuture and then try to get as much shut eye as possible. Tuesday night however was memberable, class was with Bikram and things were flowing for me, I was in my zone. We got to Triangle pose and I was feeling strong and focused, totally engaged in what I was doing and nothing else, when all of a sudden I hear a roar of gasps and little screams and then Bikram saying "Eathquake, come up, Earthquake, come up, come up Earthquake!" Ya, it took him saying it 3 times for it to register in my brain what was happening. I think that is called meditation. It was again very strange and also an experience that reminded me of a conversation Heidi and I had the day before when she expressed a little fear of "having an earthqueake in the yoga room", again, we are now being more aware of what is coming out of our mouths.
So for the most part this week went according to plan. Except for the fact that my right sciatica is fully inflamed and in a lot of pain. Not fun at all but I am dealing with it best I know how and am convinced it will pass soon. Of course I am still very exhausted daily but I am trusting the process and moving forward. We had some great speakers, got emerged in our Anatomy lessons (which thank goodness are all just a review for me, others are not so lucky and are very stressed about the upcoming exams). I feel like most of us here are adjusting and doing fine. We are all experiencing ups and downs and mood swings are in full bloom but all in all I think we are aware of them and more accepting of them.
Meeting more amazing yogi's daily and getting closer to our little crew and observing and embracing it all the best we can with our "yoga brains".
I am healthy and happy and enjoying the ride. The luxeries I have back home sound very inviting from time to time but I am not even allowing myself to go there in my mind. It will all be there when I get back and I will appreciate everything so much more for sure! I am reserving the weekends for blogging, listening to tunes, dinners out, laying by the pool (we are afterall at a very nice resort) and just indulging in all my little guilty pleasures. It is something I totally look forward to and had no idea how much I would crave!
I hope you are all doing well. I am really missing you all very much! You're in my thoughts, and I appreciate you all in my life. I know that I am very lucky to have such an amazing network of friends and family and I am very grateful for that.
Til next week...
Namaste~
Sash
P.S. I highly recommend checking out my roomie Heidi's blog as well, she is a bit more descriptive on the day to day details here. Good job girl! You can click on her blog from my page, just look over to the right side of the page under my favorite links.
P.P.S. If any of you feel like giving me a call on the weekends the number here is: 52-744-469-1000 room #720
I would love it!
Friday, September 19, 2008
Week 1!
"Holy Fuckin Shit"....
The phrase above was exactly what came out of my mouth (and Heidi's too but she actually added some just as classy words to follow) after our first 2 and 1/2 hour class with Bikram on day one! No one or nothing could have prepared us for it or for this entire week actually. We have said more than once "why in the hell did anyone encourage this kind of torture". We have questioned the so called love all our mentors and teachers have for us, why would they want us to be put thru this? Ok, I am sure none of this is making much sense to anyone except those who have been thru this, so I will try and expain to the rest of you what we have been going thru, but I can promise this, it will be very hard to put it all in words because we have gone thru so many ups and downs already, and its only week 1!
Where to start, I guess meeting Bikram and the staff, Bikram was pretty much what I thought but smaller or shorter rather. He is in incredible shape for being 72...um I mean 210 years old! ;) He makes me laugh harder than I have in a very long time and more pissed off, annoyed, angry and emotional all in sometimes that same sentence. He loves to talk and sing, a lot. He is caring and loving and also tough and pompous too. He really is a trip. But all in all I can appreciate him. His yoga is amazing and I respect him greatly for the creation of this series. Now the staff, I gotta be honest, I heard horror stories of past staff and I gotta say, our staff is awesome! They really have been great. The director is from San Diego, coincidence? I think not.
Now class. Or the last 9 classes actaully, that brings me current, can you believe it 9 down only 90 or so to go, ugh! And by the way class here is 90 minutes ONLY if you're lucky, so far most of them have been 2 hours or longer! Today was the first day that I actually remembered that I was a yogi and that I loved yoga. The first 7 classes before that were filled with nausea (lots and lots of it), dizziness, shortness of breath, prolonged elevated heart rate,migrain headaches, extreme extreme body heat (0k, so since we are in southern mexico, it is impossible to drop the humidity in the room below 70%!! Not to mention the 105-110 degree heat being pumped in simutaneously, the room is a fuckin furnace and feels like a real torture chamber, which by the way I always thought was a bit of an exaggeration before, no, not anymore, its pure truth), my classes were also filled with tears and were the most humbling experiences of my life. I mean I considered myself to have a fairly strong practise coming out here, oh boy did I get knocked on my ass real quick. Picture a room filled with 320 people with vomit buckets all lined up in the back of the room, that no joke, get full occupancy every class. And the staff constantly carrying people out like a fuckin war movie, I swear, is this yoga we are doing or this some sick torure boot camp? A little of both I am convenced. So I had food poisening or detox poisening (whatever) every day so far until today,THANK GOD its over, at least for now.Not going to get attached to anything, as things change by the minute here. It was pure misery, just picture feeling pretty much the worst you have ever felt and then walking into a furnace to do hard core yoga for 2 hours twise a day and lectures for 8 hours on top of that, brilliant huh? I know you are all jelous. Ok I think that is it for talking about the classes for now, hopefully you get the point. But to finish there is good, I had an amazing class with Bikram tonight, it felt awesome and I was elated the entire 2 hours (ya, did I mention he likes to talk, tell stories, sing songs, oh ya all the while you're holding triangle for what seems like eternity?). I practised next to our new friend Crystal (from Scottsdale) and Heidi and we all rocked it, finally! It was definite light at the end of this first weeks tunnel.
So the first week of Posture Clinics, is the time that each and every person has to get on stage and say the Half Moon dialog for Bikram and the other 310 people here. Nicole, you would have been proud, Heidi and I both volunteered the first day and got great feedback from Bikram. He actually cut me off towards the end and said "SOLD!" He said some other positive stuff but I was a littel thrown off and cant remember exactly but I know it was good and he was happy with it. YAY!
We had the honor of experiencing one of Mexico's major holidays and it was quite the party. I have video (thanks to my new Flip, love it ;)) that I will share later. Anyways, picture New Years eve in Times Square and 4th of July all rolled up in one night and that is what happened here. It was so awesome and such an amazing expereince. The hotel was all decorated, big screen tvs everywhere waiting for 11 pm for the president to come and yell "VIVA MEXICO!" and then he chants "VIVA!" and everyone chants back "MEXICO!" and this goes on for a while, the enegry was wild. Live music, lots of food booths, face painting, kids running around full of sugar and adults stumbling around taking full advatange of the free tequilla shots being passed around. There were fireworks and confettti, the whole nine yards. Mexicans raelly know how to party. Anyways, I feel very lucky to have expereinced it.
What else, our room is still great. Heidi and I are doing well as roomies, when we are grumpy (straight pissed off is a little more like it) we just kinda keep to ourselves and the other one gets it and gives a little space. But truthfully I feel more than blessed to have here with me, she is a blessing, a comfort and such an amazing friend. Love ya Heidi, we will get thru this love. The hotel is so beautiful, it is almost ridiculous. We swim in the fresh ocean water pool after every class and bask it the beauty that surrounds us. This tropical paradise is definitely keeping me inspied. I feel so at home as it reminds me so much of Maui, our room looks out to a large mountain that to me resembles Haleakala. I feel very happy here. The food is fabulous too! Big bonus. And still, no sugar for me! Yippee! Even on our first nights dinner, which was catered for us and came complete with ice cream sundae's, I still didnt buckle, and I wont, actaully that seems like a piece of cake compared to everything else, seriously. For those of you that have no idea what I am talking about, I gave up my sugar addiction for these 9 weeks and intend on conquering and diminshing it for good. Not that I will never eat suagar again but maybe just not everyday, hey that would be good.
The people, the friends, the experience in it self is all wonderful. Truly. I mean, I can honestly say the first few days I was ready to pack up and say "Fuck That" but making it thru it now has shown me just how much strength I have. What does not kill me will only make me stronger and I swear I am going to be one strong ass chick when I get out of here, I am 110% sure of it! Wish me luck, I have a long journey ahead of me. I really appreciate all the love, prayers, and positive vibes you have all sent, please keep them coming! I want you all to know how much your support means to me, so please please, please send me some messages, comments, whatever, it is such a treat to get online listen to my playlist and read messages from all of you! I feel pretty disconnected out here and as they say out here, we are in a completely different realm right now, a entirely different reality, a whole new dimension really. No one can ever explain the craziness of this experience but I will tell you this, it is the hardest thing I have ever done and after every torturing hot ass yoga class (didnt I come here because I love yoga? ya.) I am almost in disbelief that I have survived it. So, truly, any and all the love you send my way I embrace and cherish more than you will ever know. I miss you all very much. I dont have a lot of time to think about anything else besides where I am in that particular moment in time but when I do get some air and take a look around (like tonight, Bikram gave us the night off) it is so encouraging to get word from those I love. Hell, just putting on my ipod and listening to my good tunes is comforting beyond belief.
So in closing, I hope you are all well. I love you all very much, more than ever before, as my heart is so full of love right now. xoxo
Namaste~
Sash
P.S. Mom, thank u so much for the necklace, I wear it everyday! I have received lots of compliments on it but really it just makes me feel close to you and reminds me daily of why I am here, so thank you, you will never know how much it means to me. I will cherish it forever. xoxo
P.P.S. I do apologize for the not-so-PG language, I am just being raw and real, so I apologize if I offend anyone.
9-20-08- WEEK 1 COMPLETE!
Today was the official completion of week one! Hell Ya! Only 8 more weeks to go!
Class this morning was amazing and I cant even express how much gratitude I have for ending the week on a positive strong note. I even had the thought of going to the optional class tomorrow morning to stay acclimated to the hot ass room but then thought again and remembered that I am not a crazy person.
I also wanted to mention that my days here are hella long, we usually get out anywhere from midnight to 2 am it really all depends on Bikram's mood and we are up at sunrise to start the process all over again, so that is why I have zero time to connect to the outside world. But again, I so appreciate the love you all have been sending my way and look forward to it like a child on christmas morning, so please keep it coming! It truly is the driving force behind me right now. :)
All in all, I am in really good spirits and am embracing this life changing experience fully.
Time to log off and get ready to head to dinner with the girls tonight, we have aquired an awesome little crew of beautiful positive yogini's from all over the globe to surround oursleves with! Its funny, we are all blondes too (except for one), I know, its a site to be seen for sure!
xoxox
The phrase above was exactly what came out of my mouth (and Heidi's too but she actually added some just as classy words to follow) after our first 2 and 1/2 hour class with Bikram on day one! No one or nothing could have prepared us for it or for this entire week actually. We have said more than once "why in the hell did anyone encourage this kind of torture". We have questioned the so called love all our mentors and teachers have for us, why would they want us to be put thru this? Ok, I am sure none of this is making much sense to anyone except those who have been thru this, so I will try and expain to the rest of you what we have been going thru, but I can promise this, it will be very hard to put it all in words because we have gone thru so many ups and downs already, and its only week 1!
Where to start, I guess meeting Bikram and the staff, Bikram was pretty much what I thought but smaller or shorter rather. He is in incredible shape for being 72...um I mean 210 years old! ;) He makes me laugh harder than I have in a very long time and more pissed off, annoyed, angry and emotional all in sometimes that same sentence. He loves to talk and sing, a lot. He is caring and loving and also tough and pompous too. He really is a trip. But all in all I can appreciate him. His yoga is amazing and I respect him greatly for the creation of this series. Now the staff, I gotta be honest, I heard horror stories of past staff and I gotta say, our staff is awesome! They really have been great. The director is from San Diego, coincidence? I think not.
Now class. Or the last 9 classes actaully, that brings me current, can you believe it 9 down only 90 or so to go, ugh! And by the way class here is 90 minutes ONLY if you're lucky, so far most of them have been 2 hours or longer! Today was the first day that I actually remembered that I was a yogi and that I loved yoga. The first 7 classes before that were filled with nausea (lots and lots of it), dizziness, shortness of breath, prolonged elevated heart rate,migrain headaches, extreme extreme body heat (0k, so since we are in southern mexico, it is impossible to drop the humidity in the room below 70%!! Not to mention the 105-110 degree heat being pumped in simutaneously, the room is a fuckin furnace and feels like a real torture chamber, which by the way I always thought was a bit of an exaggeration before, no, not anymore, its pure truth), my classes were also filled with tears and were the most humbling experiences of my life. I mean I considered myself to have a fairly strong practise coming out here, oh boy did I get knocked on my ass real quick. Picture a room filled with 320 people with vomit buckets all lined up in the back of the room, that no joke, get full occupancy every class. And the staff constantly carrying people out like a fuckin war movie, I swear, is this yoga we are doing or this some sick torure boot camp? A little of both I am convenced. So I had food poisening or detox poisening (whatever) every day so far until today,THANK GOD its over, at least for now.Not going to get attached to anything, as things change by the minute here. It was pure misery, just picture feeling pretty much the worst you have ever felt and then walking into a furnace to do hard core yoga for 2 hours twise a day and lectures for 8 hours on top of that, brilliant huh? I know you are all jelous. Ok I think that is it for talking about the classes for now, hopefully you get the point. But to finish there is good, I had an amazing class with Bikram tonight, it felt awesome and I was elated the entire 2 hours (ya, did I mention he likes to talk, tell stories, sing songs, oh ya all the while you're holding triangle for what seems like eternity?). I practised next to our new friend Crystal (from Scottsdale) and Heidi and we all rocked it, finally! It was definite light at the end of this first weeks tunnel.
So the first week of Posture Clinics, is the time that each and every person has to get on stage and say the Half Moon dialog for Bikram and the other 310 people here. Nicole, you would have been proud, Heidi and I both volunteered the first day and got great feedback from Bikram. He actually cut me off towards the end and said "SOLD!" He said some other positive stuff but I was a littel thrown off and cant remember exactly but I know it was good and he was happy with it. YAY!
We had the honor of experiencing one of Mexico's major holidays and it was quite the party. I have video (thanks to my new Flip, love it ;)) that I will share later. Anyways, picture New Years eve in Times Square and 4th of July all rolled up in one night and that is what happened here. It was so awesome and such an amazing expereince. The hotel was all decorated, big screen tvs everywhere waiting for 11 pm for the president to come and yell "VIVA MEXICO!" and then he chants "VIVA!" and everyone chants back "MEXICO!" and this goes on for a while, the enegry was wild. Live music, lots of food booths, face painting, kids running around full of sugar and adults stumbling around taking full advatange of the free tequilla shots being passed around. There were fireworks and confettti, the whole nine yards. Mexicans raelly know how to party. Anyways, I feel very lucky to have expereinced it.
What else, our room is still great. Heidi and I are doing well as roomies, when we are grumpy (straight pissed off is a little more like it) we just kinda keep to ourselves and the other one gets it and gives a little space. But truthfully I feel more than blessed to have here with me, she is a blessing, a comfort and such an amazing friend. Love ya Heidi, we will get thru this love. The hotel is so beautiful, it is almost ridiculous. We swim in the fresh ocean water pool after every class and bask it the beauty that surrounds us. This tropical paradise is definitely keeping me inspied. I feel so at home as it reminds me so much of Maui, our room looks out to a large mountain that to me resembles Haleakala. I feel very happy here. The food is fabulous too! Big bonus. And still, no sugar for me! Yippee! Even on our first nights dinner, which was catered for us and came complete with ice cream sundae's, I still didnt buckle, and I wont, actaully that seems like a piece of cake compared to everything else, seriously. For those of you that have no idea what I am talking about, I gave up my sugar addiction for these 9 weeks and intend on conquering and diminshing it for good. Not that I will never eat suagar again but maybe just not everyday, hey that would be good.
The people, the friends, the experience in it self is all wonderful. Truly. I mean, I can honestly say the first few days I was ready to pack up and say "Fuck That" but making it thru it now has shown me just how much strength I have. What does not kill me will only make me stronger and I swear I am going to be one strong ass chick when I get out of here, I am 110% sure of it! Wish me luck, I have a long journey ahead of me. I really appreciate all the love, prayers, and positive vibes you have all sent, please keep them coming! I want you all to know how much your support means to me, so please please, please send me some messages, comments, whatever, it is such a treat to get online listen to my playlist and read messages from all of you! I feel pretty disconnected out here and as they say out here, we are in a completely different realm right now, a entirely different reality, a whole new dimension really. No one can ever explain the craziness of this experience but I will tell you this, it is the hardest thing I have ever done and after every torturing hot ass yoga class (didnt I come here because I love yoga? ya.) I am almost in disbelief that I have survived it. So, truly, any and all the love you send my way I embrace and cherish more than you will ever know. I miss you all very much. I dont have a lot of time to think about anything else besides where I am in that particular moment in time but when I do get some air and take a look around (like tonight, Bikram gave us the night off) it is so encouraging to get word from those I love. Hell, just putting on my ipod and listening to my good tunes is comforting beyond belief.
So in closing, I hope you are all well. I love you all very much, more than ever before, as my heart is so full of love right now. xoxo
Namaste~
Sash
P.S. Mom, thank u so much for the necklace, I wear it everyday! I have received lots of compliments on it but really it just makes me feel close to you and reminds me daily of why I am here, so thank you, you will never know how much it means to me. I will cherish it forever. xoxo
P.P.S. I do apologize for the not-so-PG language, I am just being raw and real, so I apologize if I offend anyone.
9-20-08- WEEK 1 COMPLETE!
Today was the official completion of week one! Hell Ya! Only 8 more weeks to go!
Class this morning was amazing and I cant even express how much gratitude I have for ending the week on a positive strong note. I even had the thought of going to the optional class tomorrow morning to stay acclimated to the hot ass room but then thought again and remembered that I am not a crazy person.
I also wanted to mention that my days here are hella long, we usually get out anywhere from midnight to 2 am it really all depends on Bikram's mood and we are up at sunrise to start the process all over again, so that is why I have zero time to connect to the outside world. But again, I so appreciate the love you all have been sending my way and look forward to it like a child on christmas morning, so please keep it coming! It truly is the driving force behind me right now. :)
All in all, I am in really good spirits and am embracing this life changing experience fully.
Time to log off and get ready to head to dinner with the girls tonight, we have aquired an awesome little crew of beautiful positive yogini's from all over the globe to surround oursleves with! Its funny, we are all blondes too (except for one), I know, its a site to be seen for sure!
xoxox
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Its Official!
I have arrived! Acapulco is beautiful and the Fairmont Princess is even more so! Our "mini condo" that Heidi and I share is way more spacious than I expected, nice surprise for sure and so far its been smooth sailing. Eveything has been super simple and easy. We are even embracing the crazy cab and shuttles rides that we have to close our eyes to withstand out of fear for our lives. "Enjoy the ride" (or rides) is what we have been told, so we are, literally. I also had a little "food poisening scare in the middle of the night last night, but woke up to feeling fine, thank god!
We have met and befriended a ton of yogi's already. Heidi has been quite the greeting committee, love her! It is so surreal being surrounded by 300 people who love this yoga as much as us and that are from all over the world. The vibe and energy is awesome and it keeps building as we get closer to Day 1! :)
Misha this one is for you, so this morning waiting to eat breakfast (which was really the only bummer so far, being that it is Mexican holiday weekend, there are a freakin' million visitors here that are also trying to eat breakfast at the same restaurant at the same time) ok on with my story, so after waiting for 30 minutes for to be seated we realized there may be a problem and there was, they lost our name and then proceeded to put our name down again under (no joke) like 40 other names! 2 hungry girls were not too impressed but ironically at the very same time a woman walked up to us out of no where and asked if we would like to join their table, they just happened to have 2 extra seats! SWEET! Hell Ya! So we sit down and begin to meet 6 others from all over the globe, London, Canada, the US and yes, drum roll please... SINGAPORE!!!! Misha, can you believe it? Your girls and your other girls all having their first breakfast together by absolute chance! I dont really believe in chances or coincidences but fate more. They are so sweet and we bonded instantly, pictures and all (which i will post soon). And of course, you our dear Misha, were the hot topic at breakie! It felt great to speak of you and how wonderful and powerful you have been in all of our lives. We miss u lots and feel your cheering from afar, thank you!
Today was our day to shop, unpack, and get organized. It all took place with total ease.
So in a couple of hours we will meet Bikram, his crew and the other 300 yogi's! Very excited and anxious to get this show on the road. We checked out the "torture chamber" and hell it is hot already and they havent even turned the heat on yet! But it is a gorgeous room and it seems unreal that I will be practising with 300 others 2 times a day for the next 62 days!
Thats really it for now, just wanted you all to know I made it safely and so far am in great spirits. I expected more anxiety, nerves and fear but am pleasantly surprised with my serenity and peace.
Hope your all well! I will be in touch again soon, please drop me a line, I really miss you all very much already!
Lots of love,
xoxox
~Sash
We have met and befriended a ton of yogi's already. Heidi has been quite the greeting committee, love her! It is so surreal being surrounded by 300 people who love this yoga as much as us and that are from all over the world. The vibe and energy is awesome and it keeps building as we get closer to Day 1! :)
Misha this one is for you, so this morning waiting to eat breakfast (which was really the only bummer so far, being that it is Mexican holiday weekend, there are a freakin' million visitors here that are also trying to eat breakfast at the same restaurant at the same time) ok on with my story, so after waiting for 30 minutes for to be seated we realized there may be a problem and there was, they lost our name and then proceeded to put our name down again under (no joke) like 40 other names! 2 hungry girls were not too impressed but ironically at the very same time a woman walked up to us out of no where and asked if we would like to join their table, they just happened to have 2 extra seats! SWEET! Hell Ya! So we sit down and begin to meet 6 others from all over the globe, London, Canada, the US and yes, drum roll please... SINGAPORE!!!! Misha, can you believe it? Your girls and your other girls all having their first breakfast together by absolute chance! I dont really believe in chances or coincidences but fate more. They are so sweet and we bonded instantly, pictures and all (which i will post soon). And of course, you our dear Misha, were the hot topic at breakie! It felt great to speak of you and how wonderful and powerful you have been in all of our lives. We miss u lots and feel your cheering from afar, thank you!
Today was our day to shop, unpack, and get organized. It all took place with total ease.
So in a couple of hours we will meet Bikram, his crew and the other 300 yogi's! Very excited and anxious to get this show on the road. We checked out the "torture chamber" and hell it is hot already and they havent even turned the heat on yet! But it is a gorgeous room and it seems unreal that I will be practising with 300 others 2 times a day for the next 62 days!
Thats really it for now, just wanted you all to know I made it safely and so far am in great spirits. I expected more anxiety, nerves and fear but am pleasantly surprised with my serenity and peace.
Hope your all well! I will be in touch again soon, please drop me a line, I really miss you all very much already!
Lots of love,
xoxox
~Sash
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
THANK U!!!
WOW!!! I am beyond grateful for all of your well wishes already!
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
You have no idea how much it means to me, these last few days have been more nerve racking than I anticipated, one minute I just want to be there already and then the next minute I have serious thoughts of reconsidering going all together. Strange. But one thing is clear, I have the best friends and family in all the world! I love you guys and just knowing that you are all behind me keeps me motivated and driven to take this on! Thanks again everyone and please keep em' comin!
Check out all the love...
Right on girl! I'm very stoked and proud. you're gonna kick ass.
take care until we meet again my dear
jenna
Holy cow!!!! That is serious! Good luck and have fun. Talk to you soon.
Guy
Congratulations Sasha - this is so exciting!! I will definitely be checking your blog to see how your journey unfolds. Wishing you strength, insight, and peace!!!
Blessings,
Julie
Hi Sasha,
Best of luck to you in Mexico! I wish you all the luck with your Bikram training. I remember you were the first person to tell me about Bikram yoga and I tried it at the studio on Tatum and Thunderbird. The pictures of your poses look amazing, by the way!I really miss your spin classes, so if you get the urge to teach spin again at any gym, please let me know!!Please send me updates on your blog with everything.Talk to you soon!
Gina
You can do it. Be safe.
Love Uncle Jon and Aunt Marie
Hope you have a great time in Mexico. Let us know when you get back so you can come tell everyone about it.
Best wishes!!
Brock
Hi Sasha,
I wish you the best as you embark on an adventure that will surely be very challenging yet so life changing. Not only will you benefit and inspire so many of your future students, but I imagine the personal benefits will be great and many and last you a lifetime. Keep in touch if you can, I would love to know how it is going or offer encouragement if you should ever need. I will definitely be there to celebrate your achievement when you return to Arizona and most definitely be ready to sign up for your classes! Safe travels!
Love, Stacy
hey baby!!!!!!
You are going to do amazing!!!!! I expect to hear from you whenever you can break away!!!
I can't wait to take your class!!!!!!
My girls from Singapore are Clancy and Elanor- please look for them and introduce yourself!!!!! I told them the same-
Lots of Love my dear and please give my love to your mama!!!!!!
Misha
Hi Sasha,
Congratulations, I am so proud of you! You are going to be awesome! I cannot wait to take one of your classes someday. You are an inspirational teacher in so many aspects. By the way, you look amazing!!! I sit here pregnant and jealous but I can live vicariously through your experience :)I will be thinking of you!xoxoxo
Cara
Hey mama,
I just wanted to send some love and positive thoughts your way as you get ready to head out to Mexico! Good luck and if you can keep me updated on how things are going, I am so excited for you. Have a safe and wonderful time!xoxo
Gina
You look great Sasha! Good luck with the yoga training - Bikram is HOT here in Cali!
Leslie
Good luck at training i miss you.come visit :(
Kayleigh
Sasha,
Congratulations! May your time spent in training be one of enlightenment surrounded by power, joy and love! Please be in contact with me when you return.
Namaste,
Raquel
You look GREAT!! I am so happy for you, now that you found a yoga you can teach and look how far you have come! I'm applauding your success, stay focused, your dreams will all come true.
Kali
Congrats Sasha! You're totally a bikram instructor...no worries.
Doris
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
You have no idea how much it means to me, these last few days have been more nerve racking than I anticipated, one minute I just want to be there already and then the next minute I have serious thoughts of reconsidering going all together. Strange. But one thing is clear, I have the best friends and family in all the world! I love you guys and just knowing that you are all behind me keeps me motivated and driven to take this on! Thanks again everyone and please keep em' comin!
Check out all the love...
Right on girl! I'm very stoked and proud. you're gonna kick ass.
take care until we meet again my dear
jenna
Holy cow!!!! That is serious! Good luck and have fun. Talk to you soon.
Guy
Congratulations Sasha - this is so exciting!! I will definitely be checking your blog to see how your journey unfolds. Wishing you strength, insight, and peace!!!
Blessings,
Julie
Hi Sasha,
Best of luck to you in Mexico! I wish you all the luck with your Bikram training. I remember you were the first person to tell me about Bikram yoga and I tried it at the studio on Tatum and Thunderbird. The pictures of your poses look amazing, by the way!I really miss your spin classes, so if you get the urge to teach spin again at any gym, please let me know!!Please send me updates on your blog with everything.Talk to you soon!
Gina
You can do it. Be safe.
Love Uncle Jon and Aunt Marie
Hope you have a great time in Mexico. Let us know when you get back so you can come tell everyone about it.
Best wishes!!
Brock
Hi Sasha,
I wish you the best as you embark on an adventure that will surely be very challenging yet so life changing. Not only will you benefit and inspire so many of your future students, but I imagine the personal benefits will be great and many and last you a lifetime. Keep in touch if you can, I would love to know how it is going or offer encouragement if you should ever need. I will definitely be there to celebrate your achievement when you return to Arizona and most definitely be ready to sign up for your classes! Safe travels!
Love, Stacy
hey baby!!!!!!
You are going to do amazing!!!!! I expect to hear from you whenever you can break away!!!
I can't wait to take your class!!!!!!
My girls from Singapore are Clancy and Elanor- please look for them and introduce yourself!!!!! I told them the same-
Lots of Love my dear and please give my love to your mama!!!!!!
Misha
Hi Sasha,
Congratulations, I am so proud of you! You are going to be awesome! I cannot wait to take one of your classes someday. You are an inspirational teacher in so many aspects. By the way, you look amazing!!! I sit here pregnant and jealous but I can live vicariously through your experience :)I will be thinking of you!xoxoxo
Cara
Hey mama,
I just wanted to send some love and positive thoughts your way as you get ready to head out to Mexico! Good luck and if you can keep me updated on how things are going, I am so excited for you. Have a safe and wonderful time!xoxo
Gina
You look great Sasha! Good luck with the yoga training - Bikram is HOT here in Cali!
Leslie
Good luck at training i miss you.come visit :(
Kayleigh
Sasha,
Congratulations! May your time spent in training be one of enlightenment surrounded by power, joy and love! Please be in contact with me when you return.
Namaste,
Raquel
You look GREAT!! I am so happy for you, now that you found a yoga you can teach and look how far you have come! I'm applauding your success, stay focused, your dreams will all come true.
Kali
Congrats Sasha! You're totally a bikram instructor...no worries.
Doris
Friday, September 5, 2008
Bikram Yoga
Bikram Yoga :
90 minute hatha yoga class, done in a heated room
26 postures, 2 breathing exercises.
Working every muscle, joint, ligament, tendon, organ and gland, bones to skin, inside and out. Requiring much determination, strength and meditation.
A practise of self realization.
It is much more than your average yoga class.
http://www.bikramyoga.com/
The time has arrived, it seems so surreal! I am wrapping up last minute details as I get ready to head down to Acapulco, Mexico for 9 weeks to train with Bikram himself and take on his "yoga boot camp" in his infamous "torture chamber". It is the only road to becoming one of his teachers of his amazing yoga! I am very nervous, anxious and excited too! I mean, when ever again will I get to spend 9 straight weeks doing nothing but yoga? 2 classes a day to be exact; thats almost 4 hours a day in the hot room! Plus another 8-10 hours a day of lectures and posture clinics. Focusing all of my time and energy on nothing but yoga. :) However, I have been warned many times over again of the hardships that lie ahead of me at training; how I will want to quit and question why I am there. I have been warned that this experience will change me and my life forever. I am going to embrace it, every minute of it! What doesnt kill me will make me stronger, right? Well then, I plan on coming out of this training stronger than ever and ready to take on my whole new life!
If you have had the opportunity to take a Bikram Yoga Class you can understand the intensity and the magnitude of self discipline and self realization required. The integrity of this practise starts within the teachers and it is known that Bikram is very hard on his teachers in order to maintain this integrity. If you havent (taken a class) I hope upon my return you will come and allow me to guide you through at least one. ;)
So here is the start to my blogging adventures, a personal journal, a window to my soul throughout this journey. You can stay in touch with my thru myspace and hotmail as well but I will have very limited phone access, in other words, I wont be using my phone for 9 weeks! Thats liberating in itself, right?
I wish you all a very happy and healthy Fall! Take good care of yourselves and eachother. I will be returning November 16 and look forward to reconnecting with you all then!
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers and please, please, please KEEP IN TOUCH! I appreciate all the love and support I can get!
With much love,
Sash
Sash
~Namaste~
"Don't let anyone or anything ever take your peace away"
"Don't let anyone or anything ever take your peace away"
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